I should have listened
I don't know what to do with you anymore. I feel like writing you a letter, but I don't even know what to say. Obviously this plan didn't work the way I wanted it to. I just wanted some closure so I could say goodbye and not be angry. Instead I feel like we bridged the gap and created more ties that need to be broken. And that makes things harder.
I know I can't get back together with you right now. But at the same time I want to. And this is what I was talking about when I said I have to decide between what I want and what's actually good for me. I think this is good for me. I think I need to reevaluate things and see what I really want before I commit myself to a long-distance relationship. And yes, I think we both need to grow up a little more before we take such a big step. But at the same time it's so easy to just fall back into old patterns.
And every time I want to turn to you, I find that something stops me. I think it's the fact that I know you're not going to be there one day. I'd rather not deal with that disappointment.
I miss what we had. But I don't think circumstances allow for that anymore. Maybe in a little while, after we both figure out what we want. If we still come back to each other, then maybe we'll be ready for it this time. But if not, then we'll know we tried.
I guess relationships need more than just love.
I know I can't get back together with you right now. But at the same time I want to. And this is what I was talking about when I said I have to decide between what I want and what's actually good for me. I think this is good for me. I think I need to reevaluate things and see what I really want before I commit myself to a long-distance relationship. And yes, I think we both need to grow up a little more before we take such a big step. But at the same time it's so easy to just fall back into old patterns.
And every time I want to turn to you, I find that something stops me. I think it's the fact that I know you're not going to be there one day. I'd rather not deal with that disappointment.
I miss what we had. But I don't think circumstances allow for that anymore. Maybe in a little while, after we both figure out what we want. If we still come back to each other, then maybe we'll be ready for it this time. But if not, then we'll know we tried.
I guess relationships need more than just love.