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today is gloomy as fuck.
and i'm going on a search for my homecoming dress.
am i even going??? i don't know if i want to anymore.
it made me really sad when you said that last night.
and i have things to say, too. but it might 'taint' things.
i finally got to talk to jackie last night. we havn't in ages and i miss her at school so much. without her there i almost feel 100% completely alone. there are people i talk to but no one i relate with. and its just this huge empty feeling as i walk through the hallways, bombarded with meaningless "heys!" & "how are you's?!" i really just need people right now. i need friends. i need strangers. i need anyone or anything at all.
i am so tired right now. i am going to get a nice cup of coffee. hah, yeah right. i havn't drank coffee in so long and right now the thought is almost revolting. maybe a ciggerette??
i just want to smile and be happy.
i remember when i used to get comments, and now i get none. and its just really funny the way livejournal works. its annoying, too. i think i really am going to make a new journal and have it be friends only. i don't give a damn anymore.