May 05, 2004 17:02
i think it was 2 years ago for my mom's birthday that i really dissappointed her. i took a piece of computer paper, cut it in the shape of a heart and wrote "happy birthday mom" on one side and some petty happy birthday message on the other. in red marker. it was ugly. and efortless.
this morning i told her i was growing. she looked at my boobs and said they look the same to her.
i meant that im getting older. im going to be on my own soon and do whatever i want. and have the whole world at my feet, so to speak.
she wont show it, but i think shes happy about all this. in her own way.
gabe and i are "rekindeling" the friendship. but its mainly up to me to keep it up. he's done his part, im the one who never returns the phone calls. effortless. i dont put any effort into things. at the beginning, anyway.