Some random bits.
Comic - Con is quickly approaching. I'm excited. No i'm not. No, wait. Yes I am. Actually, there's a lot on my mind. Comic- Con is going to be bittersweet. I can feel it. It has that vibe last year where I was so down after my dog's death, that it really took a lot of the "thrill" of hearing about the new comics and movies. Yes, while I was there it probably didn't appear that way. It took a lot of energy to keep up the level I functioned at last Comic - Con. Probably one of the reasons I got sick while I was out there.
This year, I'm dealing with trying to look for a job, and the loss of my recently ex-girlfriend. It'd be one thing if I was going there with business on my mind. But that's not the case. I'll be there for fun, how much fun can one have just losing their love and wondering where they're gonna work is beyond me. I can live in the moment though. Again just like last year though, it'll probably take a lot out of me.
I haven't posted about the break up. I'm in the process of writing about it. Not sure if I'll post it or even finish it. It's effin long already and not even finished, and most of you know the story already. So what's the point?
To it's credit though, it has motivated me like no other. Like Lisa told me "Nothing like getting dumped to get a guy off his ass.". Damn straight. I had a plan, but it was too passive, too lazy, it empowered me to put priorities on the back burner. I've already said I screwed up this past spring. But that's completely incorrect. I fucked up this Spring.
Why the sudden 180? Well, I'd be lying if the break up wasn't a factor, and I'm not going to. It has been.
I have the time, I have the freedom, and I have the means. I don't have an excuse to write more, to better my health, and most importantly to kick all my bad habits. It's been a long time since I've felt this motivated. I couldn't be more excited.
This year, I'm dealing with trying to look for a job, and the loss of my recently ex-girlfriend. It'd be one thing if I was going there with business on my mind. But that's not the case. I'll be there for fun, how much fun can one have just losing their love and wondering where they're gonna work is beyond me. I can live in the moment though. Again just like last year though, it'll probably take a lot out of me.
I haven't posted about the break up. I'm in the process of writing about it. Not sure if I'll post it or even finish it. It's effin long already and not even finished, and most of you know the story already. So what's the point?
To it's credit though, it has motivated me like no other. Like Lisa told me "Nothing like getting dumped to get a guy off his ass.". Damn straight. I had a plan, but it was too passive, too lazy, it empowered me to put priorities on the back burner. I've already said I screwed up this past spring. But that's completely incorrect. I fucked up this Spring.
Why the sudden 180? Well, I'd be lying if the break up wasn't a factor, and I'm not going to. It has been.
I have the time, I have the freedom, and I have the means. I don't have an excuse to write more, to better my health, and most importantly to kick all my bad habits. It's been a long time since I've felt this motivated. I couldn't be more excited.