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Hmm... wow.. it's 3:41 right now, and I'm in quite the shitty mood... attempting to write a persentation on a stranger I spoke to for a very short while a day ago... that I'm due to present in a little bit over 4 hours. Heh, procrastination.. i gotta stop it. My stupid moods aren't helping me either.
This last month brought out a lot of feelings in my that were both good and bad. The bad are definetly taking over me now, not really letting me do anything.If i get into these moods, it becomes terribly hard for me to focus or do somethign serious, it just all leads to me thinking... and ehausting myself.
I've been in a shitty mood for most of today. When my headache finally passed, I began looking through these really cool pics of unexplained mysteries. I accidently stumbled upon it when I was looking for pictures of tiny finger monkeys. I wonder if they REALLY exist, they're adorable! Anyhow on the site were over 1000 pics with description of ghosts and freaky animals, the elephant man, bigfoot, lockness monster, aliens.. or pictures of humans with 7 fingers( apparently the person from the picture actually belonged to a tribe that consisted of people with 7 fingers). Looking through them with everyone in my house sleeping made me suddenly feel so alone, and pretty terrified, especially since i haven't ruled out the supernatural- in my eyes anything's a possibility these days unless there's reliable proof of it not being so.
Anyhow... so I'm looking through these pics... time is flying by... and another downer on my mood. I am sent a picture of something that makes me recall things from this past month, that I wish never happened. It's hard enough getting over the events. All of today so far as well as yesterday has been pretty much about digging up my past- the past I've tried to selectively store away in a hidden part of my brain. It fucking sucks. I hope I can snap out of this mood. Another EXTREME mood... i'm overwhelmed with lonliness and sadness, I wish someone could understand the way I feel and where I'm coming from.
I guess I should really stop and give up on people understanding me. Opening up really doesn't go a long way- you're back to where you started but whichever person you opened up to just ends up biting you in the ass, since you have bared your soul to them, and it went into one ear and out the other. Maybe it's unintentional, but I wish my feelings or reactions to things would be considered once in a while. I try to do it for people but the "what goes around comes around" quote only seems to work when it deals with the negative. I've heard time and time again, epecially lately: Nobody walks besides you, besides your shadow.
My Wonderful Mood:
This last month brought out a lot of feelings in my that were both good and bad. The bad are definetly taking over me now, not really letting me do anything.If i get into these moods, it becomes terribly hard for me to focus or do somethign serious, it just all leads to me thinking... and ehausting myself.
I've been in a shitty mood for most of today. When my headache finally passed, I began looking through these really cool pics of unexplained mysteries. I accidently stumbled upon it when I was looking for pictures of tiny finger monkeys. I wonder if they REALLY exist, they're adorable! Anyhow on the site were over 1000 pics with description of ghosts and freaky animals, the elephant man, bigfoot, lockness monster, aliens.. or pictures of humans with 7 fingers( apparently the person from the picture actually belonged to a tribe that consisted of people with 7 fingers). Looking through them with everyone in my house sleeping made me suddenly feel so alone, and pretty terrified, especially since i haven't ruled out the supernatural- in my eyes anything's a possibility these days unless there's reliable proof of it not being so.
Anyhow... so I'm looking through these pics... time is flying by... and another downer on my mood. I am sent a picture of something that makes me recall things from this past month, that I wish never happened. It's hard enough getting over the events. All of today so far as well as yesterday has been pretty much about digging up my past- the past I've tried to selectively store away in a hidden part of my brain. It fucking sucks. I hope I can snap out of this mood. Another EXTREME mood... i'm overwhelmed with lonliness and sadness, I wish someone could understand the way I feel and where I'm coming from.
I guess I should really stop and give up on people understanding me. Opening up really doesn't go a long way- you're back to where you started but whichever person you opened up to just ends up biting you in the ass, since you have bared your soul to them, and it went into one ear and out the other. Maybe it's unintentional, but I wish my feelings or reactions to things would be considered once in a while. I try to do it for people but the "what goes around comes around" quote only seems to work when it deals with the negative. I've heard time and time again, epecially lately: Nobody walks besides you, besides your shadow.
My Wonderful Mood: