i'm trying to finish this fucking historiography assignment, ew
Shitgoddamnfuckfuckfuckfu543652T#$SHNHCK*^&$Y@HGDX.
I hate school and I hate papers and I hate the registrar and I hate money.
I hate this stupid mood I get in, every night, trying to do my goddamn homework but I can't.
I left the registrar after she told me I had to make an on the spot 20% downpayment of 3,687$ in order to register for classes next semester. Then I sat by the window in the building lobby for 15 minutes and thought about how much this school irritates me sometimes. Lol. Yes..."20%"...that's more like 100%, bitch, and I already PAID half of that. It wouldn't be such a big deal...but damn, it's my last semester. Am I really expected to pay with my credit card in order to take the classes I want/absolutely need to graduate? Oh, but if I pay that 3,687$ now, they'll refund me once my financial aid is (finally!) recalculated? OK WELL THEN I'LL DO IT, WOOPS TOO BAD ALL I HAVE IS DEBT. CAN I PAY WITH DEBT?
This weekend was another reminder of how irritating Gusties are sometimes. Geez. My boyfriend pointed this out, and I laughed because it's sooo true: I love it how in the cities, you suggest smoking or using *any* kind of substance or doing anything crazy, and people are like "fuck yeah I've never done it let's try it, wooooo!!!!!!"
Gustavus reaction: NO PEER PRESSURE!!! OMG, don't peer pressure!!! I'm just worried about what could happen if _____ and ______ and _______ and what if ________. Awkwardness/uncomfortable silence. Someone is offended somehow.
Ok...that's an exaggeration, but for some reason, feels scathingly accurate, which I find bizarre since there are so many bright minds here. And seriously, that stupid-ass term makes things more awkward, because it carries such a negative connotation it makes people feel like they shouldn't be doing whatever it is they're thinking of doing even more, and that whoever is 'peer pressuring' them is in the wrong for even suggesting it. That's bullshit.
It's like damn, why isn't the default approach to just fucking try new things and find out. Peer pressure? Are we 12??? The entire concept of peer pressure revolves around being a child and not being able to make decisions and handle uncomfortable situations on your own! I'm sorry...I just can't respect recalling D.A.R.E. programming as a way to deal with the world coming from 20 year old college students. Whyyy are people so afraid of things...? Whyyy are people convinced the world is out to get them? I'm still baffled as to why smart people can be so lame sometimes...like they don't view themselves as capable of handling a situation in which they have to break some rules. Tiny little rules. I swear, realizing none of them actually matter is such a big step in maturing. Blah.
I hate school and I hate papers and I hate the registrar and I hate money.
I hate this stupid mood I get in, every night, trying to do my goddamn homework but I can't.
I left the registrar after she told me I had to make an on the spot 20% downpayment of 3,687$ in order to register for classes next semester. Then I sat by the window in the building lobby for 15 minutes and thought about how much this school irritates me sometimes. Lol. Yes..."20%"...that's more like 100%, bitch, and I already PAID half of that. It wouldn't be such a big deal...but damn, it's my last semester. Am I really expected to pay with my credit card in order to take the classes I want/absolutely need to graduate? Oh, but if I pay that 3,687$ now, they'll refund me once my financial aid is (finally!) recalculated? OK WELL THEN I'LL DO IT, WOOPS TOO BAD ALL I HAVE IS DEBT. CAN I PAY WITH DEBT?
This weekend was another reminder of how irritating Gusties are sometimes. Geez. My boyfriend pointed this out, and I laughed because it's sooo true: I love it how in the cities, you suggest smoking or using *any* kind of substance or doing anything crazy, and people are like "fuck yeah I've never done it let's try it, wooooo!!!!!!"
Gustavus reaction: NO PEER PRESSURE!!! OMG, don't peer pressure!!! I'm just worried about what could happen if _____ and ______ and _______ and what if ________. Awkwardness/uncomfortable silence. Someone is offended somehow.
Ok...that's an exaggeration, but for some reason, feels scathingly accurate, which I find bizarre since there are so many bright minds here. And seriously, that stupid-ass term makes things more awkward, because it carries such a negative connotation it makes people feel like they shouldn't be doing whatever it is they're thinking of doing even more, and that whoever is 'peer pressuring' them is in the wrong for even suggesting it. That's bullshit.
It's like damn, why isn't the default approach to just fucking try new things and find out. Peer pressure? Are we 12??? The entire concept of peer pressure revolves around being a child and not being able to make decisions and handle uncomfortable situations on your own! I'm sorry...I just can't respect recalling D.A.R.E. programming as a way to deal with the world coming from 20 year old college students. Whyyy are people so afraid of things...? Whyyy are people convinced the world is out to get them? I'm still baffled as to why smart people can be so lame sometimes...like they don't view themselves as capable of handling a situation in which they have to break some rules. Tiny little rules. I swear, realizing none of them actually matter is such a big step in maturing. Blah.