From one thing to the next....
So I'm sitting there half watching "Dukes of Hazzard" and half thinking about some terrible news that I just had just heard and really couldn't fully swallow all at once. So all of a sudden my pocket (a.k.a. cell phone) starts vibrating and scares the shit outta me!
I didn't know the number but for some reason something told me to answer it... so I did... And it was Ruth, my boss (and the owner, go figure) at Ruthie's. She was on a Jimmy Fund bike marathon ride this weekend and she called to ask if I could work tomorrow because she had a pretty bad accident while she was biking. I feel soooooooo bad! There's nothing I can do to help except work ya know? And I couldn't even work tomorrow because I'm being a taxi service for my brother and his friends to and from the beach. Stacey is suppose to come with me but I know that one of us has to work because we're the only 2 people that they will let work by themselves. So I called Stacey and she said she'd do it (STACEY I LOVE YOU!) then she called Brittanie and she's gonna go in at 8:00 and help too. So everything worked out but I still feel badly for Ruth. Now she's just gonna call me later on in the week and see when she needs me next and what not. She apologized for calling me at 11:00. She said she was sorry it was late. lol. HA! Seriously....
But anyway... on the bright side, the person that saw me smoking the other day and that was completely avoiding me, my text messages, IM's, and phone calls, finally talked to me today. The conversation didn't go well at all and it ended with him saying "Whatever. Even if I am mad it won't make you stop so what's the point?" But the truth is, everyone worrying and being hurt and upset DID make me stop. I don't like intentionally hurting people with things that I can control, so I won't. And he knows that now and we're all good. He tried to avoid me at first when he saw me. He saw me when I was behind a bunch of people and after that tried to ignore me but I stared him down and made him look at me and that broke him down. So we're all good. And I know he's going through a really rough time right now and I want him to know that I'm always here. :)
Anyway I guess that's all I really have to say except tomorrow is going to SUCK! If I wasn't going to be at the ocean soaking up the sun rays with all that I have, I would say screw it! But I am... and I'm doing this for my damn brother and his friends AS USUAL so ya know?
It's like, every time I turn around it's something else. But it keeps my mind off of me and to tell you the truth, I love being needed! And by that I mean I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE being needed again. I could go on but I won't. I've missed being the responsible, needed, wanted one.... And it's coming back...
It's like it just goes from one thing to the next..... in good ways and bad....
I didn't know the number but for some reason something told me to answer it... so I did... And it was Ruth, my boss (and the owner, go figure) at Ruthie's. She was on a Jimmy Fund bike marathon ride this weekend and she called to ask if I could work tomorrow because she had a pretty bad accident while she was biking. I feel soooooooo bad! There's nothing I can do to help except work ya know? And I couldn't even work tomorrow because I'm being a taxi service for my brother and his friends to and from the beach. Stacey is suppose to come with me but I know that one of us has to work because we're the only 2 people that they will let work by themselves. So I called Stacey and she said she'd do it (STACEY I LOVE YOU!) then she called Brittanie and she's gonna go in at 8:00 and help too. So everything worked out but I still feel badly for Ruth. Now she's just gonna call me later on in the week and see when she needs me next and what not. She apologized for calling me at 11:00. She said she was sorry it was late. lol. HA! Seriously....
But anyway... on the bright side, the person that saw me smoking the other day and that was completely avoiding me, my text messages, IM's, and phone calls, finally talked to me today. The conversation didn't go well at all and it ended with him saying "Whatever. Even if I am mad it won't make you stop so what's the point?" But the truth is, everyone worrying and being hurt and upset DID make me stop. I don't like intentionally hurting people with things that I can control, so I won't. And he knows that now and we're all good. He tried to avoid me at first when he saw me. He saw me when I was behind a bunch of people and after that tried to ignore me but I stared him down and made him look at me and that broke him down. So we're all good. And I know he's going through a really rough time right now and I want him to know that I'm always here. :)
Anyway I guess that's all I really have to say except tomorrow is going to SUCK! If I wasn't going to be at the ocean soaking up the sun rays with all that I have, I would say screw it! But I am... and I'm doing this for my damn brother and his friends AS USUAL so ya know?
It's like, every time I turn around it's something else. But it keeps my mind off of me and to tell you the truth, I love being needed! And by that I mean I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE being needed again. I could go on but I won't. I've missed being the responsible, needed, wanted one.... And it's coming back...
It's like it just goes from one thing to the next..... in good ways and bad....