Tattoo indecision
I asked my mum what she thought about me getting a tattoo, and was surprised at her really negative reaction.
(As usual, I ignored my Dad. I might be tempted into doing the enormous 3/4 back wings just to piss him off and get a heart attack! Hah!)
So now, TREMENDOUS doubt about my wanting to get one.
Not because that I think it's a bad thing of impulse, but their negative reaction has made me realized how much I really want to do it.
I had settled on a infinity ouroboros design.
Imagine this picture horizontal and more life-like snake-looking
1) Ouroboros because I believe in re-incarnation and the whole circle of life philosophy.
2) Snake because I really wanted to get a pet snake since 5 years ago, but this being Singapore, I have a high chance of being ratted out to the authorities by my neighbours and endangering my family members.
3) Infinity because I am, at heart, a science geek.
4) The perfect place for it would be half wrapped around my left ankle, which has been badly sprained and I wish for the tattoo there to help with the mental healing process.
For all the reasons above, I feel that my wanting THIS particular tattoo is validated, and I will be happy with it for life. Which is what a tattoo is all about, no?
The doubt comes from the fact that the sad loser that I am, I'm still living with them even tho' I'm almost thirty, and thus have subjected myself to their rules.
And the Asian way is that your body belongs to your parents, as they have brought you into this world. And no matter how much I scoff at this, some inner part of me feels like this too. Especially since I live with them, and I do not want the daily disapproval at something so important to me.
Plus, I'm kinda worried they'll throw me out, on grounds of their eldest daughter being off her rockers at such a gansterish tattoo, instead of a nicely girlie/decorative one like all the celebrities are doing.
The fact that the above are actual considerations against doing something so right, makes me wonder if I am emotionally mature to get a tattoo at all. Spiritual naivety? Self-growth stuntedness?
(As usual, I ignored my Dad. I might be tempted into doing the enormous 3/4 back wings just to piss him off and get a heart attack! Hah!)
So now, TREMENDOUS doubt about my wanting to get one.
Not because that I think it's a bad thing of impulse, but their negative reaction has made me realized how much I really want to do it.
I had settled on a infinity ouroboros design.
Imagine this picture horizontal and more life-like snake-looking
1) Ouroboros because I believe in re-incarnation and the whole circle of life philosophy.
2) Snake because I really wanted to get a pet snake since 5 years ago, but this being Singapore, I have a high chance of being ratted out to the authorities by my neighbours and endangering my family members.
3) Infinity because I am, at heart, a science geek.
4) The perfect place for it would be half wrapped around my left ankle, which has been badly sprained and I wish for the tattoo there to help with the mental healing process.
For all the reasons above, I feel that my wanting THIS particular tattoo is validated, and I will be happy with it for life. Which is what a tattoo is all about, no?
The doubt comes from the fact that the sad loser that I am, I'm still living with them even tho' I'm almost thirty, and thus have subjected myself to their rules.
And the Asian way is that your body belongs to your parents, as they have brought you into this world. And no matter how much I scoff at this, some inner part of me feels like this too. Especially since I live with them, and I do not want the daily disapproval at something so important to me.
Plus, I'm kinda worried they'll throw me out, on grounds of their eldest daughter being off her rockers at such a gansterish tattoo, instead of a nicely girlie/decorative one like all the celebrities are doing.
The fact that the above are actual considerations against doing something so right, makes me wonder if I am emotionally mature to get a tattoo at all. Spiritual naivety? Self-growth stuntedness?