Sleepy

[a_scarring_lie]

I am really tired and want to go to sleep for a little while, but i have to work at twelve thirty. Aside from that i am really stressed about my weight. I gained a few pounds these last few weeks, and my stomache is really big. I want to start working out, but its hard to find time and i would much rather work out at a gym. I dont have the money for a membership or a car to get me there which sucks. Brendan and I talked about going to getting me some Pilaties tapes to do...that would be alright i guess, but i dont want to work out when people are home. I think i am going to do a Tae*Boe tape today before work. I have to showever anyway so hopefully i will sweat some of this sick fat off. I never thought i would be fat. I am always hungry though. I am going to start eating more healthy so thats another good start. It sort of sucks though because the holidays are here. Speaking off...*turns on Christmas music*.

I dont have the time to clean my room before Thanksgiving. I wish it would just clean itself lol. Brendan and i shared a good kiss this morning when he dropped me off...<3 I want more of those.

I am way excited for Christmas :)