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Okay so theres so many things i want to just randomly babble about and i dont really know where to start. I guess everything is going to have to be updated in more that one entry.
First off..this is for you Amanda since you wanted me to update more :)
Over the weekend i read some sweet valley high book. Of course it had a love story to it. It made me feel mushy, but then i started feeling weird because as always the guy in the book was very romantic and did special things for Elizabeth a lot. It made me reflect on my relationship with Brendan. He is a great guy, and he does treat me really well. Sometimes though, i will he gave the relationship a little extra, ya know? Anyway, i dont exactly remember where i was going with that.
Also, since i have been babysitting so much as much as i want a child i want to wait awhile longer and i finally got that through my head. If it happens it happens, but i hope it doesn't for awhile. There are three children that i babysit for all at once, and it tires me out. Now one kid wouldn't be AS much work, but still. Between everything else that i have going on in my life, it would become very complicated.
Both Michelle and Katie are engaged. I have to say i was quite jealous hearing about it. I can't wait for my day to come. Even though i haven't been with Brendan all that long i feel like he is the one. I know he is deep down inside. I want the sense of security with him and know that we have a comitment together. I know girls fall way faster than guys, and sometimes i feel like i am rushing things. But everything is just so great and right with him that i feel like i want to speed things up. Relationships are complicated and a lot of work. Sometimes when we get in our minor arguments i feel like i am just going to drop it because thats what always happens. I dont want that to be a possibility. My family loves Brendan and i pretty sure his loves me as well. Sometimes i feel or get it into my head that i have more love and wishful thoughts for the future than he does. Again, probably something to do with him being a male. I finally told him tonight though basically what i am writing in here, but only in a nutshell. He called me sweetie on the phone when i just talked to him and it made me melt. I love being called sweetie/honey, and it makes me feel special when he does do it. I have been with guys who referred to me as baby ALL THE TIME and it drove me nuts. I don't like being called that all the time, but its still nice when that happens.
Wouldn't it be great if we all lived in a perfect world and everything was wonderful all the time. Then again, maybe that would get boring.
This week has been hard trying to get over my sinus infection/broncitious (sp?). I have been tired which makes me irritable. Sometimes i nag Brendan for no reason. Its not out of boredom and i know i dont think i can walk on him. I feel bad when i do things like this, but sometimes this feeling just comes over me.
I have to stop there. People are home.
First off..this is for you Amanda since you wanted me to update more :)
Over the weekend i read some sweet valley high book. Of course it had a love story to it. It made me feel mushy, but then i started feeling weird because as always the guy in the book was very romantic and did special things for Elizabeth a lot. It made me reflect on my relationship with Brendan. He is a great guy, and he does treat me really well. Sometimes though, i will he gave the relationship a little extra, ya know? Anyway, i dont exactly remember where i was going with that.
Also, since i have been babysitting so much as much as i want a child i want to wait awhile longer and i finally got that through my head. If it happens it happens, but i hope it doesn't for awhile. There are three children that i babysit for all at once, and it tires me out. Now one kid wouldn't be AS much work, but still. Between everything else that i have going on in my life, it would become very complicated.
Both Michelle and Katie are engaged. I have to say i was quite jealous hearing about it. I can't wait for my day to come. Even though i haven't been with Brendan all that long i feel like he is the one. I know he is deep down inside. I want the sense of security with him and know that we have a comitment together. I know girls fall way faster than guys, and sometimes i feel like i am rushing things. But everything is just so great and right with him that i feel like i want to speed things up. Relationships are complicated and a lot of work. Sometimes when we get in our minor arguments i feel like i am just going to drop it because thats what always happens. I dont want that to be a possibility. My family loves Brendan and i pretty sure his loves me as well. Sometimes i feel or get it into my head that i have more love and wishful thoughts for the future than he does. Again, probably something to do with him being a male. I finally told him tonight though basically what i am writing in here, but only in a nutshell. He called me sweetie on the phone when i just talked to him and it made me melt. I love being called sweetie/honey, and it makes me feel special when he does do it. I have been with guys who referred to me as baby ALL THE TIME and it drove me nuts. I don't like being called that all the time, but its still nice when that happens.
Wouldn't it be great if we all lived in a perfect world and everything was wonderful all the time. Then again, maybe that would get boring.
This week has been hard trying to get over my sinus infection/broncitious (sp?). I have been tired which makes me irritable. Sometimes i nag Brendan for no reason. Its not out of boredom and i know i dont think i can walk on him. I feel bad when i do things like this, but sometimes this feeling just comes over me.
I have to stop there. People are home.