It's been a while...
I've been a bit busy this year. Work got crazy. Well actually someone at work got crazy and they fired him. So we were running on just Steve and I. Steve and his wife had been in a major car accident and that meant alot fell on my shoulders. I'm not complaining just explaining. This is what you do for team members. Things were starting to fall back in line and then I got a call on February 10th. It was my dad calling for me to get there as soon as possible - Tomorrow. Your mother is in the hospital and It's not good. So I packed the car and Lilah! and got there first thing the next day. I went to the hospital and talked with my mom. she was doing well, but she knew who I was and was glad to see me. The next day, I went to visit her and we were talking and things went south. We later found out she had had a Stroke. I called my brother and he flew down a week early. When he got there, I stayed a couple of days, but then headed home to take care of the AC/Heat on the car. While I was home, Matt and Dad decided to put mom into to Hospice. On Friday I headed back and on Sunday Matt went home. I ended up staying there for the next 3 weeks. As we were getting closer to the end, I called Matt and had him come back to say goodbye. Mom Passed the next morning. She waited for him, which I am forever grateful she did. That was March 10th.
My Life has not been my own since then. My father needs constant attention. Matt and I call him every other day to make sure he is speaking to someone and checking in. I go down every other weekend and stay with him. Next Saturday is Mom's funeral and her ashes will be interred into the columbarium. I am going to have to cut back my visits with him. It's killing my car, and it's not real good for me either.
That month there did help me come up with some plans for my future. It helped me look at my life objectively and narrow in on what I need to do to change it for the better. Not only what, but how. Don't get me wrong, I didn't find the meaning of life or have an epiphany or anything. I just started seeing things a little clearer.
- I am Fat and I feel like crap. - Eat better. Move more. I'll still be fat, but I won't feel so bad. So far it's working. I've dropped some inces, but not a lot of weight. But it's a start.
- My quality of life sucks. I spend 9 hours behind a computer and 3 hours behind the wheel of a car. No wonder I'm fat and overwhelmed. - Sell the house and move to the other side of the lake.
- Too many projects. - Sell off this stuff. I sold the camper. I sold off the aquariums. I need to get rid of the Jeeper (Otie) I will never get around to making it into a camper. Sell it.
When I get time I have been trying to complete some of the many projects and repairs that need to be tackled before I put the house on the market. That will be the next post. A list of things I need to get done!