So Here's A Question......

[a_napoleon]

Am working at Banyan this morning, one of the characteristics of which is that you are constantly talking about and/or talking to very successful people. And I was thinking (somewhat distractedly) that a large portion of my own worldview revolves around a central tenet: That I personally, and to a large extent those around me as well, will be

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[isisantonius]

Even when I was a kid, I seemed to have come from a place where I was quite sure that I would NEVER be happy and NEVER be comfortable/in control/on top. It's just recently that I've been able to hold the idea that it's possible that I may be happy, comfortable, in control, etc.

I don't know if this is a depression/chemical imbalance issue (I was the depressed 4-year-old who locked herself in the closet and cried regularly for no apparent reason), a family dynamic issue (let's not go there, suffice to say it was Bad), or a socialization issue (to take an example Jon and I talked about not too long ago: we both watched Inspector Gadget as a kid. He thought it was neato because Gadget got all kinds of fun toys to play with. I thought it sucked because Penny invariably solved all the crimes and was never credited by the cops or thanked by her uncle for her help. In fact she practically invisible to them all. Which told me that no matter how clever, helpful, or proactive I was, I wouldn't be good enough because I was both female and a child) or a combination of all three.