<3 if it feels this good gettin used...just keep usin me till you use me all up <3
ahh yet another day at work....its absolutely FREEZING outside...and its cold in here as well....gotta love it....going out last night wasnt exactly the best idea i ever had... idk why i go out when i know i have to get up at 6 the next morning....but ehhh it was a good time.....cute boys always make a night seem decent...especially ones with cute little accents. ;o) so anyways im exhausted...freezing...and bored with no work...and myspace is blocked...so eljay is my only option.....
life has seemed to change in oh so many ways these past few months...lost some friends....made some new ones...severed old ties....mended some friendships/whatever we will call it....im content...as content as you can be with a broken heart..with no hope of it getting better....with the one i want to get better with <3
i think the worst thing/feeling is sitting back watching the one you love...love someone else. its a fucked up situation all together. but i have no one to blame other than myself....
onto bigger and better things.... i got a 960 dollar christmas bonus.....which makes me incredibly happy... christmas is in 9 days...it doesnt feel like christmas like it used to when i was little... i miss that feeling "i want you to want me... i need you to need me...i'd love you to love me..and im beggin you to beg me <3"
underoath is playing sometime this weekend and i wanna go..simply b/c they are amazing 9000... but it looks asif that wont be happening...which sucks but im sure they'll be back... i havent been to a show in SO long... i miss it.
i still have christmas shopping to do...and packages to send out to New York... i guess i need to get busy... i suppose thats what my weekend will consist of.
this post is definately a bunch of random thoughts and just about pointless...sorry.
<3 if it feels this good gettin used...baby, just keep usin me till you use me all up <3
sooo im goin out to lunch with tim today..and i hung out with a guy that sweats me last night...and im supposed to hang out with yet another night and saturday...its weird that im getting so much attention from all these guys that seem to like me...yet i dont find it satisfying at all..baby i want attention from you and no one else.....that's what would satisfy me.
"dont baby...dont baby..dont let it go...dont forget about us <3"
and im gonna go....i should probably do some work...since thats what im getting paid for....later bitches i love you all <3333