(no subject)
I have never felt so alone standing around tons of people. I am sick of the drama and I am sick of everything. I drove around last night for hours just thinking. It feels like there is so much to think about, but the truth is, I guess I already know the answers. I'm just not much a fan of the truth. I'm starting my New Year's Resolution, healthy food and excersise. I'm working on trying to love myself for who I am, b/c if I can do that, than that means someone else can too.
The truth is, I wanna get serious with someone. I don't want to deal with the bullshit and back and forth stories and excuses anymore. I just want the real thing. I've often fantasized about it with certain people, but even if I felt that way, I don't think the feeling was mutual. Or i got the excuse that they didn't know how to express it. But who fucking does, I didn't take a class on telling people how i feel. Hell i even suck at it, Im great at holding back but sometimes it builds up so strong and i explode.
but why complain...back to thinking of the positive things, like improving my body...and hopefully finding a true love. that would be spectacular,...
The truth is, I wanna get serious with someone. I don't want to deal with the bullshit and back and forth stories and excuses anymore. I just want the real thing. I've often fantasized about it with certain people, but even if I felt that way, I don't think the feeling was mutual. Or i got the excuse that they didn't know how to express it. But who fucking does, I didn't take a class on telling people how i feel. Hell i even suck at it, Im great at holding back but sometimes it builds up so strong and i explode.
but why complain...back to thinking of the positive things, like improving my body...and hopefully finding a true love. that would be spectacular,...