Hello world, it's me again...
Goodness gracious, it's been forever and a day since I sat down to right in my precious little journal here. I've often contemplated starting a new one just to be rid of everything in this one, but I guess I don't really want to delete it either because I feel like I'd be deleting part of myself and my past. In a way it is kind of fun to have to look back at and laugh at and just sometimes to remember.
Although my "summer" ended awhile ago the season will soon officially be over as well. While I hate to admit this I think I'm going to miss summer this year. Summers have always been full of fun and parties and such but this summer was just so different. I'm not really sure how to explain it, but it was. I feel like I'm beginning to define a small corner of the world as my own. This summer I have decided that no matter where I go and no matter how much I cherish winter I need to be some where that has four distinct seasons, and a season warm enough to be spent on the water. Water was a very integral part of my summer. I spent a lot of time with Kate this summer, and a lot of the time we spent together involved the water, between boating, swimming, and the beach. I just never realized how much I loved the water, but I've decided I don't think I could live without it.
I feel like so much has changed in my life as of late. I've finally registered for school again, and I feel great about it. I'm still skeptical because I know that starting out I have to take some classes as a review and that's going to be tedious and most likely drive me crazy, but I think I'm okay with that. I'm prepared for it none the less. It feels like my life is beginning to branch out, and I think I might be ready to pick a road to travel down soon.
My friends have become quite spread out as well. Erin is in Delaware, just like she's been the past three years. I definately miss her, we haven't spent a whole full day together in ages. Although I have complete faith that when we do things will just pick up and we'll spend all kinds of time telling each other stories, all the while never skipping a beat. That's one thing I've learned for myself these past couple of years, true friends never let time spent apart stand in the way of friendship. Kate has ventured back down to South Carolina. I miss her in the worst way, I think it's just sort of withdrawl since I saw her almost every day this summer. But again no matter the distance or the time in between meetings and conversations I know things won't change between us. Sam is tackling an internship in New York. I'm so incredibly proud of her. I can't wait to go visit her and see all the wonderful stuff she's up to. I know right now she's stressed out and frazzled, but I also know that she's living the chance of a lifetime. Amy and Jenn are back in school too for the semester. I look forward to Christmas this year when we all get to reconnect.
I've watched all of my friends start to plan their lives and start tracks to follow and I'm quite glad to be joining the band wagon. I feel like before this summer this past year I spent too much of my time observing things happen. But this summer I decided I need to live my life in moments, I need to cherish everything that happens and take it as it comes. It's not healthy to spend everyday waiting for something else to come along. You miss out on a lot. Granted I feel like I still always had fun, there's just a difference that's all.
Relationship wise I'm still just me, I'm not part of a couple yet. But I'm okay with that. There are times I long for it, but I also know that when it's time it will happen. I've seen good things happen to people recently, and I know that I'll get my turn too, even though sometimes jealousy gets the best of me there. I am often reminded that I'm the last of my cousins to be married, well just to those of you who are reminding me you might as well be prepared to wait quite a few more years because marriage is just a bit too concrete for me to be imagining in my near future.
Work, well work that's quite the change actually. Working in photo has been probably the best thing that ever happened to me in the sense of Costco. I adore Devon, my supervisor, she's amazing. While I got to working with Sam was fantastic, and I'm looking forward to four months in the future when she'll be back. I don't know. I was telling Sam today that while sometimes I still don't feel like going to work, everyone knows what I mean, when I pull up to Costco I don't resent it anymore. I don't loathe my job, and I almost enjoy being there. Hell I do enjoy it, I have a blast in photo. <3
So I guess that's my life as of 1:04 am on September 7, 2006. I'm going to try to write more, I miss it, it used to help me vent and feel grounded. And besides I really do like writing. (and we all know that when I have homework to do I'm going to need something to help me procrastinate, ugh I'm not ready for homework.)
<3melissa
Although my "summer" ended awhile ago the season will soon officially be over as well. While I hate to admit this I think I'm going to miss summer this year. Summers have always been full of fun and parties and such but this summer was just so different. I'm not really sure how to explain it, but it was. I feel like I'm beginning to define a small corner of the world as my own. This summer I have decided that no matter where I go and no matter how much I cherish winter I need to be some where that has four distinct seasons, and a season warm enough to be spent on the water. Water was a very integral part of my summer. I spent a lot of time with Kate this summer, and a lot of the time we spent together involved the water, between boating, swimming, and the beach. I just never realized how much I loved the water, but I've decided I don't think I could live without it.
I feel like so much has changed in my life as of late. I've finally registered for school again, and I feel great about it. I'm still skeptical because I know that starting out I have to take some classes as a review and that's going to be tedious and most likely drive me crazy, but I think I'm okay with that. I'm prepared for it none the less. It feels like my life is beginning to branch out, and I think I might be ready to pick a road to travel down soon.
My friends have become quite spread out as well. Erin is in Delaware, just like she's been the past three years. I definately miss her, we haven't spent a whole full day together in ages. Although I have complete faith that when we do things will just pick up and we'll spend all kinds of time telling each other stories, all the while never skipping a beat. That's one thing I've learned for myself these past couple of years, true friends never let time spent apart stand in the way of friendship. Kate has ventured back down to South Carolina. I miss her in the worst way, I think it's just sort of withdrawl since I saw her almost every day this summer. But again no matter the distance or the time in between meetings and conversations I know things won't change between us. Sam is tackling an internship in New York. I'm so incredibly proud of her. I can't wait to go visit her and see all the wonderful stuff she's up to. I know right now she's stressed out and frazzled, but I also know that she's living the chance of a lifetime. Amy and Jenn are back in school too for the semester. I look forward to Christmas this year when we all get to reconnect.
I've watched all of my friends start to plan their lives and start tracks to follow and I'm quite glad to be joining the band wagon. I feel like before this summer this past year I spent too much of my time observing things happen. But this summer I decided I need to live my life in moments, I need to cherish everything that happens and take it as it comes. It's not healthy to spend everyday waiting for something else to come along. You miss out on a lot. Granted I feel like I still always had fun, there's just a difference that's all.
Relationship wise I'm still just me, I'm not part of a couple yet. But I'm okay with that. There are times I long for it, but I also know that when it's time it will happen. I've seen good things happen to people recently, and I know that I'll get my turn too, even though sometimes jealousy gets the best of me there. I am often reminded that I'm the last of my cousins to be married, well just to those of you who are reminding me you might as well be prepared to wait quite a few more years because marriage is just a bit too concrete for me to be imagining in my near future.
Work, well work that's quite the change actually. Working in photo has been probably the best thing that ever happened to me in the sense of Costco. I adore Devon, my supervisor, she's amazing. While I got to working with Sam was fantastic, and I'm looking forward to four months in the future when she'll be back. I don't know. I was telling Sam today that while sometimes I still don't feel like going to work, everyone knows what I mean, when I pull up to Costco I don't resent it anymore. I don't loathe my job, and I almost enjoy being there. Hell I do enjoy it, I have a blast in photo. <3
So I guess that's my life as of 1:04 am on September 7, 2006. I'm going to try to write more, I miss it, it used to help me vent and feel grounded. And besides I really do like writing. (and we all know that when I have homework to do I'm going to need something to help me procrastinate, ugh I'm not ready for homework.)
<3melissa