....sort of needed to vent a little.
Thursday, July 6, 2006
Sagittarius (Nov 22 - Dec 21)
You may have to sink down into the depths in order to blow off that negative charge that has become an anchor in your life. You could simply cut the emotional ties that bind you and be free, but it's not that simple. This isn't about making an escape; it's about finding a way to put zest back into your life. It's about doing something that makes you feel fully alive. Still, it's always better to consider the consequences before you act on your feelings.
So it's about 6 am and I'm clearly not sleeping. I actually just got back from Philly about two hours ago. It was such a fun night. But anyway back to the point of me writing. I've realized that without knowing any better I've slipped back in to my bitter ways. I'm not even sure why, but I think yesterday well two days ago got the best of me. And I went a little overboard with my anger and resentment. And I don't like that. So I was sitting here thinking that I needed to take a step back and let everything go and just not worry about it. Inevitably I will always have history with some people and there are some things I will probably always hold on to. It's kind of like I've accepted them, but at the same time I've accepted that I can never forget they've happened. But that's all on me, I shouldn't hold grudges I should just let go and just not fuss about the same old stupid shit that is bound to keep cycling. I'm just tired of it all. I feel like I've grown up so much since the last time this bout occurred and I don't want to regress back in to that damn rut. In fact I refuse to. I know that I've been witnessing a lot of drama this summer but for the most part I've managed to stay out of it and just watch from the sidelines (I admit part of me will always be amused by drama) and I'm not gonna let that change now. I can honestly say other then slight irritations that I'm determined not to let get to me I have no problems with anyone right now and I like that. I don't like fighting with my friends, or anyone really. And I know I'm a bitch, I'm totally okay with that but I don't think that I've been all that bitchy lately. And I'm working on the whole judgemental thing, I admit to judging when I don't intend to, but I don't hold myself to my judgements either they're just kind of fleeting. I guess bottom line is until a couple of days ago I was completely content with myself and now I'm not so much and I'm finally seeing why I wasn't ever content before. So to put it quite simply whatever happened in the past happened in the past, I'm not dwelling on it. I'll probably always have a tinge of resentment towards certain people, and I'm sure I'll always be the target of some as well but as of right now I don't have issues with anyone at all in any way shape or form. Do what you will, do what you want, just be happy and don't start stupid shit with me. Let me be.
*melissa
Sagittarius (Nov 22 - Dec 21)
You may have to sink down into the depths in order to blow off that negative charge that has become an anchor in your life. You could simply cut the emotional ties that bind you and be free, but it's not that simple. This isn't about making an escape; it's about finding a way to put zest back into your life. It's about doing something that makes you feel fully alive. Still, it's always better to consider the consequences before you act on your feelings.
So it's about 6 am and I'm clearly not sleeping. I actually just got back from Philly about two hours ago. It was such a fun night. But anyway back to the point of me writing. I've realized that without knowing any better I've slipped back in to my bitter ways. I'm not even sure why, but I think yesterday well two days ago got the best of me. And I went a little overboard with my anger and resentment. And I don't like that. So I was sitting here thinking that I needed to take a step back and let everything go and just not worry about it. Inevitably I will always have history with some people and there are some things I will probably always hold on to. It's kind of like I've accepted them, but at the same time I've accepted that I can never forget they've happened. But that's all on me, I shouldn't hold grudges I should just let go and just not fuss about the same old stupid shit that is bound to keep cycling. I'm just tired of it all. I feel like I've grown up so much since the last time this bout occurred and I don't want to regress back in to that damn rut. In fact I refuse to. I know that I've been witnessing a lot of drama this summer but for the most part I've managed to stay out of it and just watch from the sidelines (I admit part of me will always be amused by drama) and I'm not gonna let that change now. I can honestly say other then slight irritations that I'm determined not to let get to me I have no problems with anyone right now and I like that. I don't like fighting with my friends, or anyone really. And I know I'm a bitch, I'm totally okay with that but I don't think that I've been all that bitchy lately. And I'm working on the whole judgemental thing, I admit to judging when I don't intend to, but I don't hold myself to my judgements either they're just kind of fleeting. I guess bottom line is until a couple of days ago I was completely content with myself and now I'm not so much and I'm finally seeing why I wasn't ever content before. So to put it quite simply whatever happened in the past happened in the past, I'm not dwelling on it. I'll probably always have a tinge of resentment towards certain people, and I'm sure I'll always be the target of some as well but as of right now I don't have issues with anyone at all in any way shape or form. Do what you will, do what you want, just be happy and don't start stupid shit with me. Let me be.
*melissa