Just Before We Both Go Numb
I feel no trust.
Never get involved with someone when that relationship is based on a secret. I should have never. Mmm, sentence fragments.
It's like, I know she's really good at keeping things from people, so why should I believe that she won't do the same to me. And when she says, "You better believe me," I don't. I want to, but I don't. I should trust her, she's my girlfriend, and I love her. But I don't. And Im a fuckin peice of shit cause she left her phone at my house yesterday on accident, and I read her texts, which I shouldn't have done. I'm just so fucked, I think. I can't tell her that I don't trust her, cause that will destroy us, but I'm still destroying myself. I just want to shake her and ask her where she's been and who she's been talking to. That's not me, that's not who I want to be. But I also don't want to be delusional and oblivious to everything. Those 2 things seem to be my only option, and that's horrible.
Never get involved with someone when that relationship is based on a secret. I should have never. Mmm, sentence fragments.
It's like, I know she's really good at keeping things from people, so why should I believe that she won't do the same to me. And when she says, "You better believe me," I don't. I want to, but I don't. I should trust her, she's my girlfriend, and I love her. But I don't. And Im a fuckin peice of shit cause she left her phone at my house yesterday on accident, and I read her texts, which I shouldn't have done. I'm just so fucked, I think. I can't tell her that I don't trust her, cause that will destroy us, but I'm still destroying myself. I just want to shake her and ask her where she's been and who she's been talking to. That's not me, that's not who I want to be. But I also don't want to be delusional and oblivious to everything. Those 2 things seem to be my only option, and that's horrible.