Up in the Air!
Having an existential crisis...feeling erratic and impulsive...not in a sexual way or anything, and not in a depressed way...I don't think.
My life is fun and I have great people in it...but I feel unfulfilled. And as much air as I pump into the idea that it's not a career that I'm lacking...that idea is bursting wide open.
It's just so daunting...and maybe I won't even feel this way in a couple days, and that's fine, but I feel like my life is so full of happiness and love...that it's almost boring!
That's so selfish, but I feel it. I own that. Perhaps my problem is I don't have anything to pour my enthusiasm into...maybe I need a passion?
Sean is amazing, and I love him more than life. He's everything I ever said I needed, and proved how narrow your eyes are before you fall in love with someone...but love isn't everything. It can't be, and I need some sort of...THING to do, that I'm proud to do...it's not coming out right...
I thought about medical school today because I watched Grey's Anatomy all day and watched people save lives...but I know I don't have the skills needed...but maybe something patient related. I like helping people...it's great making people happy and healthy...but maybe I don't need a scalpel to do that, but what then?
I guess I just need to think it out. We'll see.
Librarians help people learn...maybe that.
We'll see.
I feel like a dodge ball, and all I wanna do is take someone out! That someone being the metaphor for my purpose in life. Or at least a part of it...
My life is fun and I have great people in it...but I feel unfulfilled. And as much air as I pump into the idea that it's not a career that I'm lacking...that idea is bursting wide open.
It's just so daunting...and maybe I won't even feel this way in a couple days, and that's fine, but I feel like my life is so full of happiness and love...that it's almost boring!
That's so selfish, but I feel it. I own that. Perhaps my problem is I don't have anything to pour my enthusiasm into...maybe I need a passion?
Sean is amazing, and I love him more than life. He's everything I ever said I needed, and proved how narrow your eyes are before you fall in love with someone...but love isn't everything. It can't be, and I need some sort of...THING to do, that I'm proud to do...it's not coming out right...
I thought about medical school today because I watched Grey's Anatomy all day and watched people save lives...but I know I don't have the skills needed...but maybe something patient related. I like helping people...it's great making people happy and healthy...but maybe I don't need a scalpel to do that, but what then?
I guess I just need to think it out. We'll see.
Librarians help people learn...maybe that.
We'll see.
I feel like a dodge ball, and all I wanna do is take someone out! That someone being the metaphor for my purpose in life. Or at least a part of it...