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[a_bleeding_rose]

My heart is heavy. I've done a lot of thinking in the past week. I've questioned many of my decisions, both recent and past. Sometimes the weight of all the memories makes my head want to explode. Others, it is my heart. I've attempted to delve into the void of lost memories, but so many faces are gone. So many names, places, events. I cannot remember them. Only shadows.

The cold is horrendous. I can barely use my hands some days. I feel old.

I am weary.

I wonder how soon I might again find myself on that bridge. And I wonder which choice I'll make.