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pyrokinetic_ in _you_would

I hate this.

Apr 05, 2005 22:36

This. This whole thing. This being here to apologize to freakin' Jake over a God damn guilty conscience. And it's not like Carly's on my case to apologize, so I'm doing this of my free will. And it's JakeWhere'd I leave my sanity again? I'm starting to miss it more and more ( Read more... )

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solidloyalty April 6 2005, 03:34:11 UTC

I half-expected to see Carly walking in behind Sam when Sam entered the bar. I couldn't imagine him coming down to Freddy's alone, oweing to his extreme hatred of my very being and the fact that he was a recovering alcoholic. The closer he got to the bar itself, the more I began to think that Carly might not be coming at all.

So. What did Sam want?

This was definitely weird.

I set aside the glass I'd been wiping out and leaned against the counter as Sam approached. "Hey... what's up?"

pyrokinetic_ April 6 2005, 10:21:03 UTC

"Hey... what's up?"Now or never Howell. Get it over with ( ... )

solidloyalty April 6 2005, 15:03:51 UTC

"Hey."

Well, he's definitely not happy to see me. Never in my wildest dreams would I assume that he would be.

"Carly's doing the whole playing with Julia thing so she'll be spending more time with her since I'll be gone for the week, so..."

'So' what? 'So don't have sex with my girlfriend while I'm gone, okay?' Was that what this was about? Did he honestly think that I'm so seedy and underhanded that I would lower myself to being some kind of homewrecker just because I had a week alone with Carly? I had promised to help Carly out, nothing more. All of the other responsible people had other responsibilities to attend to. I was just stepping up to the plate to help out a friend. One of my best friends. What kind of person would I be if I'd turned her down?

"So I wanted to come here and apologize for the crap that happened. From both me and Carly. You were trying to be nice, and I wasn't helping anything."

"It's cool," I said with a shrug. "Carly was drunk, you were just trying to do damage control. ... it's not a big deal."

"And ( ... )

pyrokinetic_ April 6 2005, 20:10:43 UTC

"It's cool, Carly was drunk, you were just trying to do damage control. ... it's not a big deal."

He's being too freakin' nice about this, it's disgusting. Cool of him, yeah, but really really disgusting. Why can't he get pissed? I'm pissed. Why can't he get pissed? This is bullshit.

"Yeah. And in the event that she can't, she'll have some help. You don't have anything to worry about, Sam."

The hell I don't.

Although, he looks like he means it. Which, is not only more disgusting, makes me feel twice as guilty. God damn it! What is this? Carly cursing me to feel bad for being a jackass to a guy I'm actually allowed to hate? She had something done, didn't she ( ... )

solidloyalty April 11 2005, 00:15:03 UTC

"I know. I also know you still love her."

Talk about blunt. This conversation had been awkward to begin with... but that only made it worse. Oh well... nothing that could be done about it now.

"You picked up on that, huh?"

"I mean, I know I'd be tempted. And if she gets drunk again..."

He really thinks I'm going to try and steal Carly away, doesn't he? I can understand why he doesn't like me. I'm Carly's ex-boyfriend, which is enough cause for dislike, but Carly and I are still close friends... I know that only makes it worse. He doesn't like that I'm around all the time. He doesn't like that Carly and I are so close. He just doesn't like me. I get that. I can deal with that.

But does he have to be so dead-set on thinking that I'm some horrible, rotten person who's constantly trying to ruin his life? Because I'm not. Really. I'm not.

"It's not that I don't trust you. No, actually, that's exactly it. I know it's because I don't know you well enough. I know it's because I never took the time to. And you know what? I'm actually ( ... )

pyrokinetic_ April 11 2005, 10:41:57 UTC

"I respect what you and Carly have and what you two have built together. I'm trying to treat you the same way I'd like to be treated if I were in your situation. Think what you want about me... you can hate me all you want to. But I'm not a homewrecker. I'm just trying to help Carly out, alright? First and foremost, she's my friend. ... that's all."

He's getting pissed. Finally. Now I feel better about being a jackass to the guy, took long enough. Sure, technically I had to be worse to make it better, but as long as this doesn't leave me and him ( ... )

solidloyalty April 12 2005, 01:41:16 UTC

"Okay. Thanks for being honest. And thanks for putting up with the last two minutes of that conversation."

Asshole. All he wants to do is instigate. He's not interested in fixing things or making them better. He doesn't want to try and get to know me. He doesn't want to do anything that might actually make sense. No. He wants to instigate. He wants to cause trouble that none of us need. He wants to be a jerk. He wants to hurt people.

If that's really what he wants, he's succeeding.

"In advance, yeah. I am aware of how bad that was. I'll see you around."

"Yeah. Whatever," I muttered, going back to drying the glasses I'd been working on before Sam showed up. Fine. He could leave. I didn't care if he ever came back to my bar again. Obviously he was only interested in wasting my time with his petty insecurities and thinly veiled insults.

Asshole. What does Carly see in him, anyway? He's just going to end up causing more grief for everyone.

He can stay in the Bahamas for all I care. Good riddance.

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