"I'm already to the left. I go any more left, I'm going to fall over."
I laughed and focused the camera better before I looked over it again, and then looked through once more. "It still doesn't look right. Think you can balance?" Shoots like this are always hell with this magazine, because they're never completely satisfied with what they get. I just try to spin it so I still know it's mine and not some carbon copy of someone else's crappy work by the end of it.
But I've worked with the girls and guys doing this at least once on various jobs, and they're all alright. As long as it keeps going like this, we should be done pretty soon.
"I'll try. Just for you."I tried to put up a good smile to that, but it fell short. I've gotten asked more than once why I've seemed off the last couple of days, but I just ignore it. I've been doing better over the last couple of days. Arianna and Madsen are hellbent on making sure I don't mope over this, so I've been trying
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He should make an attempt to reconcile with Carly. It wouldn't take much. She misses him more than she cares to admit. I'm not allowed to bring it up when I'm around her, but its obvious. She mentioned how he's been taking his stuff from the apartment when she isn't there, and I could tell how much it hurt her. She thinks he's moving on.
I have hard time believing that Sam could be doing that. The way he's holding Julia alone shows how much he loves her. If I were in his place, I couldn't turn my back on my family as easily as Carly seems to think Sam did. I don't think he has either. I think he's just fighting the notion that the first step in fixing this is going to have to be his.
Carly started all of this. Someone on the outside might take that knowledge and say its her job to end it too. But if I know better, then so does Sam. Carly believes in the actions she chose. The longer Sam lets it go without a fight, the more she thinks she has justification for the whole thing
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Hey, look. Something that actually throws Dan off a little. If it was going to be anything, it'd be Arianna.
"Something. Something good."
"She's said pretty much the same thing." I know he's not going to give me details, and I don't want them. The last thing I want to hear about is how it went. I just want to know if things are going well. Between the looks on the two of them, it is.
It might be different, but at least it's making my sister happy. That's all I care about.
"How have you been doing?""Fine." Mostly. I smiled as I watched Julia reach up and pull on one of the fake tree's leaves, then moved her hand away once she started pulling too hard on it. It falls, and it could really easy since it's that cheap, it'll fall on me. I don't need that
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Alright. I'm not sure that I buy it, but I doubt Sam cares either way. He doesn't have to prove himself to me, I'm just his girlfriend's nephew. I understand that I was part of the package. We're not really friends, and we wouldn't talk at all if not for Carly and Julia. Knowing that, I still want to see him work this out with Carly. They'd both be happy again if they did.
And personally, I'd like to see both of them aware that they're not really fine. It would do a lot for them if they could see that they need each other.
"I'm handling it, I'm not drunk, I haven't thought about it that much.""That's good
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"Arianna told me. Carly assumes you're with Natasha. Mostly because she didn't hear anything after you left with her."
She would. That proves how much faith she has in me. Jesus. It's not like she's called me either, and I only thought for a little while that she might be off having sex with someone else. Then I thought that was wrong, because she's not exactly like that.
So at least I've got more faith in her, and in us, than she does. She just automatically thinks I've run off or something. Un-freakin'-believable.
"She's trying."
Of course she is. I wouldn't expect anything less out of her.
"She's been spending all of her time either at work, or with Julia."
Which is pretty much what I thought she'd be doing. She's not leaving Julia with anyone else, and that's good. One of us should at least be there, even if thanks to this stupid crap, I can't be all the time.
"I know its not my place to say it, but I have to tell you, she's different when you're not around. A lot quieter. She keeps to herself as much as she can, and even
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I could tell him why, too. Its a stupid way to look at it because regardless of Carly starting it, Carly is not going to be the one to finish it. The way she's been approaching this, its over unless Sam decides to tell her otherwise. She hasn't been willing to hear about him, and she thinks there's nothing more for her to do.
Carly is focusing on getting over it, because as far as she's concerned, that's all she can do. Try to tell her otherwise and she won't listen to it. She knows she screwed up. She thinks she deserves her life the way it is now.
Maybe she does, but when all three of them are suffering because of it, I tend to think it can be fixed no matter what karma wants for her.
"I'm sorry. I haven't completely stopped being mad yet."I wonder how much he thinks being mad is going to solve. I knew I shouldn't have gotten in the middle of this. I can't do it without wanting to argue that they should get back together. And in some ways, I want to
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"Carly isn't going to approach you about this, if that's what you mean."
I wasn't expecting that much. Heaven forbid she decides to handle this herself, and actually come to me, and say she's sorry.
It has to be me. Always. Because she makes everything oh so freakin' justified inside her head, and she has to blindly keep believing she did the right thing, no matter how wrong it is.
"But I don't think she'll need a lot of convincing. She knows there was a lot wrong with the way that she acted."
I really doubt that.
"No, she doesn't. I only did it because you both seem so far from getting this resolved, and its starting to affect Julia a lot more than either one of you seem to realize."I know it's affecting Julia. If I didn't, how she's acting right now would tell me. I don't like this anymore than she does. And I would get this resolved if I could figure out what to say about this. She is going to need convincing. That's how Carly is
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"I'm already to the left. I go any more left, I'm going to fall over."
I laughed and focused the camera better before I looked over it again, and then looked through once more. "It still doesn't look right. Think you can balance?" Shoots like this are always hell with this magazine, because they're never completely satisfied with what they get. I just try to spin it so I still know it's mine and not some carbon copy of someone else's crappy work by the end of it.
But I've worked with the girls and guys doing this at least once on various jobs, and they're all alright. As long as it keeps going like this, we should be done pretty soon.
"I'll try. Just for you."I tried to put up a good smile to that, but it fell short. I've gotten asked more than once why I've seemed off the last couple of days, but I just ignore it. I've been doing better over the last couple of days. Arianna and Madsen are hellbent on making sure I don't mope over this, so I've been trying ( ... )
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He should make an attempt to reconcile with Carly. It wouldn't take much. She misses him more than she cares to admit. I'm not allowed to bring it up when I'm around her, but its obvious. She mentioned how he's been taking his stuff from the apartment when she isn't there, and I could tell how much it hurt her. She thinks he's moving on.
I have hard time believing that Sam could be doing that. The way he's holding Julia alone shows how much he loves her. If I were in his place, I couldn't turn my back on my family as easily as Carly seems to think Sam did. I don't think he has either. I think he's just fighting the notion that the first step in fixing this is going to have to be his.
Carly started all of this. Someone on the outside might take that knowledge and say its her job to end it too. But if I know better, then so does Sam. Carly believes in the actions she chose. The longer Sam lets it go without a fight, the more she thinks she has justification for the whole thing ( ... )
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Hey, look. Something that actually throws Dan off a little. If it was going to be anything, it'd be Arianna.
"Something. Something good."
"She's said pretty much the same thing." I know he's not going to give me details, and I don't want them. The last thing I want to hear about is how it went. I just want to know if things are going well. Between the looks on the two of them, it is.
It might be different, but at least it's making my sister happy. That's all I care about.
"How have you been doing?""Fine." Mostly. I smiled as I watched Julia reach up and pull on one of the fake tree's leaves, then moved her hand away once she started pulling too hard on it. It falls, and it could really easy since it's that cheap, it'll fall on me. I don't need that ( ... )
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Alright. I'm not sure that I buy it, but I doubt Sam cares either way. He doesn't have to prove himself to me, I'm just his girlfriend's nephew. I understand that I was part of the package. We're not really friends, and we wouldn't talk at all if not for Carly and Julia. Knowing that, I still want to see him work this out with Carly. They'd both be happy again if they did.
And personally, I'd like to see both of them aware that they're not really fine. It would do a lot for them if they could see that they need each other.
"I'm handling it, I'm not drunk, I haven't thought about it that much.""That's good ( ... )
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She would. That proves how much faith she has in me. Jesus. It's not like she's called me either, and I only thought for a little while that she might be off having sex with someone else. Then I thought that was wrong, because she's not exactly like that.
So at least I've got more faith in her, and in us, than she does. She just automatically thinks I've run off or something. Un-freakin'-believable.
"She's trying."
Of course she is. I wouldn't expect anything less out of her.
"She's been spending all of her time either at work, or with Julia."
Which is pretty much what I thought she'd be doing. She's not leaving Julia with anyone else, and that's good. One of us should at least be there, even if thanks to this stupid crap, I can't be all the time.
"I know its not my place to say it, but I have to tell you, she's different when you're not around. A lot quieter. She keeps to herself as much as she can, and even ( ... )
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"That's a stupid way to look at it."
I could tell him why, too. Its a stupid way to look at it because regardless of Carly starting it, Carly is not going to be the one to finish it. The way she's been approaching this, its over unless Sam decides to tell her otherwise. She hasn't been willing to hear about him, and she thinks there's nothing more for her to do.
Carly is focusing on getting over it, because as far as she's concerned, that's all she can do. Try to tell her otherwise and she won't listen to it. She knows she screwed up. She thinks she deserves her life the way it is now.
Maybe she does, but when all three of them are suffering because of it, I tend to think it can be fixed no matter what karma wants for her.
"I'm sorry. I haven't completely stopped being mad yet."I wonder how much he thinks being mad is going to solve. I knew I shouldn't have gotten in the middle of this. I can't do it without wanting to argue that they should get back together. And in some ways, I want to ( ... )
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I wasn't expecting that much. Heaven forbid she decides to handle this herself, and actually come to me, and say she's sorry.
It has to be me. Always. Because she makes everything oh so freakin' justified inside her head, and she has to blindly keep believing she did the right thing, no matter how wrong it is.
"But I don't think she'll need a lot of convincing. She knows there was a lot wrong with the way that she acted."
I really doubt that.
"No, she doesn't. I only did it because you both seem so far from getting this resolved, and its starting to affect Julia a lot more than either one of you seem to realize."I know it's affecting Julia. If I didn't, how she's acting right now would tell me. I don't like this anymore than she does. And I would get this resolved if I could figure out what to say about this. She is going to need convincing. That's how Carly is ( ... )
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