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So, this morning my mom called me downstairs and told me she had this dream that she picked me up from laurels house and I was drunk and high and we got into a fight and I was saying really nasty things to her and it was just a replay of what happened when all this stupid shit started. Well, I told her that I hadn't been doing anything but smoking pot and I hardly did that. (lie) I was contemplating not doing coke today but then she was being a bitch all fucking morning and that made me change my mind. Actually, I probably would've done it anyways whether she was bitch or not but now I won't feel as guilty. Seriously, she was freaking out over stupid shit and it was so annoying because there was no point in fighting back because shes always fucking right. Whatever. Anyways, we had a half day in school today which went by pretty fast. I was in a bad mood all day though, everyone was annoying the shit out of me. Natalie was standing by me and laurel when we were talking about doing the coke and shes like OHHH I wanna do it blah blah. I'm like oh well do you have any money? No? well too damn bad. skank. Agh she annoys me so much. Seriously I don't know why I am nice to that girl. She was always a fucking bitch to me and has never really done anything for me but stab me in the back. People suck. Also, Dillon just walks past me in the halls like I'm not even there, it makes me think that he doesn't like me then of course he texts me when I get home. its like hes scared to talk to me in person. I guess thats kind of hypocritical because thats kind of how I am but I'm getting over it and he's like 17 or 18, he shoulda grown out of that by now. I'm in a better mood now then I was earlier but its still not all that great. It used to be that when I was by myself I would be all depressed, well I still do get depressed when I'm by myself but people always put me in a bad mood. Not always, but most of the time. Idk, I'm done ranting.