"what rides better than a mustang?" "me"
wow...i got the most wonderful surprise..someone knocked on the door...and when i opened it, it was Taylor. opening that door and seeing him behind it made my heart sink. he's finally home. and i'm so HAPPY he is. i couldn't believe it was him...i jumped on him and covered him in kisses. *grins* god. it's SO great to have him here. and when the
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im sorry that I havent commented you,returned phone calls even really, or acted alive to the world.I went to a place where I didnt think i'd ever come out of it, my worst fears even..running in place, in a dark,dark place..where I could hear everyone I loved you know?But I couldnt see them,none of it would go away, none of it was going away, the voices, the depression..my anger,my hurt,it was all weighing me down.And then somehow..through it all,kaley got me out of it, she convinced me to come over, to even have a good time and I liked it once I started.
Im so sorry for the hurt i've put you and tay through, im so sorry that i've scared you guys so much.Im a lucky man to have you guys still in my life,giving me a swift kick in the ass when I need it and am ready to give up.The sudden loss of my children and kate,and then the divorce of natalie and I,and tay going to jail,you being pregnant by ike rapeing you..it all..just..I dont even know,I fell..I fell on my ass hard and was gasping for air..it nocked the wind out of me and I was turnin blue in the face.Sorry I made it seem like I lost everything, it just felt like I did.You and tay matter, and the baby girl your almost positive that your carrying,and zachary even though I barely ever get to see him,and now even kaley and jenni who've become a part of my life.Who'd have known such an unlucky man could be so lucky?
Really...nikki..you hang in there.I cant fucking thank you enough for everything.Im gonna try to be a better man, im determined.I got to live, live for my children who didnt get that oppertunity.
Ike needs to streighten his fuckin punk ass out.Seriously.There are LOTS of us who have it worse then him, honest to god.Atleast he hasnt lost a child, when he does..then his bitch ass can talk to me.I wouldnt ask that of anyone though.
Im just so glad you got tay out of this,you saved him,you really did.Even when I couldnt.your the best thing to ever happen to him, apart from juliet and the boys
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