"what rides better than a mustang?" "me"
wow...i got the most wonderful surprise..someone knocked on the door...and when i opened it, it was Taylor. opening that door and seeing him behind it made my heart sink. he's finally home. and i'm so HAPPY he is. i couldn't believe it was him...i jumped on him and covered him in kisses. *grins* god. it's SO great to have him here. and when the boys saw him their eyes lit up and they had these huges smiles on their faces it was priceless. god. i'm glad he's home. i knew i missed him but i didn't realize just how much till i opened the door and saw him standing there grinning at me. ever since he's been home i haven't been able to whipe this smile off my face. it's great to have him home. wow. it's great to have him here. i missed him so much.
tay--hey babe. it's so great to have you back. i missed you so much. i'm just glad your finally home and you're not allowed to leave anymore! lol. i'm kidding. me and you need to go out one night by ourselves. we havent done that for awhile. gosh. i'm so happy your home. i was so sad when you was gone. it was like part of me was missing. i'm glad your home. i have never missed anyone as much as i missed you. we need to have a little party for you being home and plus for the twins birthday so we need to do that. you know what i missed most about you being gone? is walking in on you when you was with the twins before they was asleep and you'd be softly singing to them. i love to listen to you sing. i missed hearing you sing while you was gone. you need to give me a private concert one night and i might even get you a nice thank you for it *grins* anyhow. just know that i missed you and that i love you so much. and i never ever want you to leave me again. <3
Zac--how are you hun? you really need to get out. you're really worrying me and tay. you can't just stayed locked up and alone. you need to get out hon. staying home and beating yourself up isn't going to help you. you need to start healing otherwise you might never heal again. i'm sorry to hear about you and nat.. is there anything i can do for you hon? i'm here if you ever need to talk you know that. i just hate seeing you like this. i miss zac..you're old happy self. this new Zac is not the Zac i know and love. you're on a self-distruct misson and i dont like that. *sigh* i really miss you Zac. you need to get out i hate seeing you liek this. you should really hang out with Kaley some i mean im not saying fall in love with her or try and replace nat or anything you just need to get out...and touch people again. Kaley could be good for you. you never know she might save you cause Zac you need saving. you're like Tay was before i helped him...you remember how he was? and how worried me and you was about him? well zac you're just like him right now and it's scarying me. i know you've lost everything but you still have Ethan. You can't let yourself go what about him? if you keep going like this whos going to be his dad? Zac Ethan needs you. Tay needs you...the twins need you. you really need to get help or let someone help you who wants too. please?
Ike--hey..how are you doing? i haven't heard from you in awhile. are you okay? if you need someone to talk to or whatever know im here for ya okay? and i need to tell you when the next doc app. is so ifyou wanna go with me you need to call me and get the info. she kicked for the first time the other day..it was neat. if you wanna come and spend time you can.i mean i feel like your missing out on this pregnancy and i feel bad. i want you to be part of it and i know its awkward with me being with tay and everything but i want you to be here for it all the way through. you're going to be part of her life so you should be part of the pregnancy..maybe one day me and you can go shopping for her room thats going to be where you are. i'll help you with all that if you want. Ike i wanna be your friend.. i know you dont wanna be my friend only but i really want to be your friend. i miss you. you was my friend too not just a boyfriend. i'd really liek to stay friends with you cause we're gonig to be in each others lives for awhile so we need to atleast be friends. please ike?
Nat-hey...how are you? i know we aren't all friendly and everything but i'd like to change that. i'd like to be your friend. hows Ethan? i'd like to come over and see him or you could come over here and we could talk and let Ethan meet his cousins. i'd really like to be your friend. and if you ever want a chick to talk to know im here okay? anything you need i'm here.
but yeah..i got those outta t he way. but having tay home has been wonderful. it's like a cloud has been lifted over the house hold. it's so nice having him home. you dont know how much you'd miss someone till their gone. im so gald he's home. i love him so much. i sometimes feel bad cause i know my being with tay hurts ike but i love tay and as much as ike doesn't like that it makesme happy and he should be happy for me. i really hope he comes to terms with that and accepts it cause i really miss him. he was a friend *sigh* i feel so horrible for hurting ike..i know i shouldn't cause of everything he put me through but i still feel horrible. i hate to hurt anyone. it makes me feel like such a bad person. but i can't let ike get in my way of happiness cause no matter what i deserve happiness and tay makes me happy. just seeing him smile makes my heart start beating faster. gosh. i'm so in love with tay. i feel like such a school girl around him. *blushes* i'm getting huge! and i've been craving ice cream like whoa. i think imma have to send tay on an ice cream run soon. i didn't get cravings like this with the boys my little girl is going to have a sweet tooth. she kicked the other day! it was so awesome. i talk to her like i did with the twins. i mostly did it while tay was gone. i have a doc app. soon. i need to start getting her some stuff clothes and all that. i love baby shopping someone needs to go with me. nat or kaley? would one of yall like to go shopping with me?
i need girlfriends. i need someone to gossip with. god the twins look more and more like tay everyday. emery and micah are always gibbering to each other and are always together. it's so adorable to see the bond they have already. they are like really close and its awesome. god i can only imagine how proctective thier goingto be of their little sister. boy. having tay home has been wonderful. i'm thinknig about planing a big evening out for me and him.. i just gotta find someone to baby sit the twins while i do this. *sigh* im rambling. but thats okay. i really hope zac gets better im so worried about him. i've been taking photos of the twins and i'm going to make them each a scrapbook and then i'm going to make them one of nothing but them together. then im going to make one like that for my little girl and one of her and the boys and then i'm going to make a seperate one of family shots. i really want to be a photographer. thats all i've been doing lately. and like each month i take a picture of my belly to show the growth..so i'm doing some really neat things. i'm going to start trying to get emery and micah to start crawling. lord those 2 are really going to be a handful when they start walking. i love being pregnant. i think i'm going to have all kinds of kids. i love kids...i love my little boys and my unborn girl. i really need to start picking out names for her..ike if you wanna help with that tell me. and we'll sit down and think of some okies? well i think i've rambled enough this time so bye. Tay-i love you so much. <3
-Nikki
tay--hey babe. it's so great to have you back. i missed you so much. i'm just glad your finally home and you're not allowed to leave anymore! lol. i'm kidding. me and you need to go out one night by ourselves. we havent done that for awhile. gosh. i'm so happy your home. i was so sad when you was gone. it was like part of me was missing. i'm glad your home. i have never missed anyone as much as i missed you. we need to have a little party for you being home and plus for the twins birthday so we need to do that. you know what i missed most about you being gone? is walking in on you when you was with the twins before they was asleep and you'd be softly singing to them. i love to listen to you sing. i missed hearing you sing while you was gone. you need to give me a private concert one night and i might even get you a nice thank you for it *grins* anyhow. just know that i missed you and that i love you so much. and i never ever want you to leave me again. <3
Zac--how are you hun? you really need to get out. you're really worrying me and tay. you can't just stayed locked up and alone. you need to get out hon. staying home and beating yourself up isn't going to help you. you need to start healing otherwise you might never heal again. i'm sorry to hear about you and nat.. is there anything i can do for you hon? i'm here if you ever need to talk you know that. i just hate seeing you like this. i miss zac..you're old happy self. this new Zac is not the Zac i know and love. you're on a self-distruct misson and i dont like that. *sigh* i really miss you Zac. you need to get out i hate seeing you liek this. you should really hang out with Kaley some i mean im not saying fall in love with her or try and replace nat or anything you just need to get out...and touch people again. Kaley could be good for you. you never know she might save you cause Zac you need saving. you're like Tay was before i helped him...you remember how he was? and how worried me and you was about him? well zac you're just like him right now and it's scarying me. i know you've lost everything but you still have Ethan. You can't let yourself go what about him? if you keep going like this whos going to be his dad? Zac Ethan needs you. Tay needs you...the twins need you. you really need to get help or let someone help you who wants too. please?
Ike--hey..how are you doing? i haven't heard from you in awhile. are you okay? if you need someone to talk to or whatever know im here for ya okay? and i need to tell you when the next doc app. is so ifyou wanna go with me you need to call me and get the info. she kicked for the first time the other day..it was neat. if you wanna come and spend time you can.i mean i feel like your missing out on this pregnancy and i feel bad. i want you to be part of it and i know its awkward with me being with tay and everything but i want you to be here for it all the way through. you're going to be part of her life so you should be part of the pregnancy..maybe one day me and you can go shopping for her room thats going to be where you are. i'll help you with all that if you want. Ike i wanna be your friend.. i know you dont wanna be my friend only but i really want to be your friend. i miss you. you was my friend too not just a boyfriend. i'd really liek to stay friends with you cause we're gonig to be in each others lives for awhile so we need to atleast be friends. please ike?
Nat-hey...how are you? i know we aren't all friendly and everything but i'd like to change that. i'd like to be your friend. hows Ethan? i'd like to come over and see him or you could come over here and we could talk and let Ethan meet his cousins. i'd really like to be your friend. and if you ever want a chick to talk to know im here okay? anything you need i'm here.
but yeah..i got those outta t he way. but having tay home has been wonderful. it's like a cloud has been lifted over the house hold. it's so nice having him home. you dont know how much you'd miss someone till their gone. im so gald he's home. i love him so much. i sometimes feel bad cause i know my being with tay hurts ike but i love tay and as much as ike doesn't like that it makesme happy and he should be happy for me. i really hope he comes to terms with that and accepts it cause i really miss him. he was a friend *sigh* i feel so horrible for hurting ike..i know i shouldn't cause of everything he put me through but i still feel horrible. i hate to hurt anyone. it makes me feel like such a bad person. but i can't let ike get in my way of happiness cause no matter what i deserve happiness and tay makes me happy. just seeing him smile makes my heart start beating faster. gosh. i'm so in love with tay. i feel like such a school girl around him. *blushes* i'm getting huge! and i've been craving ice cream like whoa. i think imma have to send tay on an ice cream run soon. i didn't get cravings like this with the boys my little girl is going to have a sweet tooth. she kicked the other day! it was so awesome. i talk to her like i did with the twins. i mostly did it while tay was gone. i have a doc app. soon. i need to start getting her some stuff clothes and all that. i love baby shopping someone needs to go with me. nat or kaley? would one of yall like to go shopping with me?
i need girlfriends. i need someone to gossip with. god the twins look more and more like tay everyday. emery and micah are always gibbering to each other and are always together. it's so adorable to see the bond they have already. they are like really close and its awesome. god i can only imagine how proctective thier goingto be of their little sister. boy. having tay home has been wonderful. i'm thinknig about planing a big evening out for me and him.. i just gotta find someone to baby sit the twins while i do this. *sigh* im rambling. but thats okay. i really hope zac gets better im so worried about him. i've been taking photos of the twins and i'm going to make them each a scrapbook and then i'm going to make them one of nothing but them together. then im going to make one like that for my little girl and one of her and the boys and then i'm going to make a seperate one of family shots. i really want to be a photographer. thats all i've been doing lately. and like each month i take a picture of my belly to show the growth..so i'm doing some really neat things. i'm going to start trying to get emery and micah to start crawling. lord those 2 are really going to be a handful when they start walking. i love being pregnant. i think i'm going to have all kinds of kids. i love kids...i love my little boys and my unborn girl. i really need to start picking out names for her..ike if you wanna help with that tell me. and we'll sit down and think of some okies? well i think i've rambled enough this time so bye. Tay-i love you so much. <3
-Nikki