"what rides better than a mustang?" "me"

[_xonikkiox_]

wow...i got the most wonderful surprise..someone knocked on the door...and when i opened it, it was Taylor. opening that door and seeing him behind it made my heart sink. he's finally home. and i'm so HAPPY he is. i couldn't believe it was him...i jumped on him and covered him in kisses. *grins* god. it's SO great to have him here. and when the

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[_xonikkiox_]

yes we need a night out def. well Kaley said she would so i guess we could ask her or Zac. i know you dont want ike looking after them i understand that. but i think ike has come to terms with everything so hopefully he'll be better.

im excited cause i love kids. being a mom is like the only thing im good at anymore. i hope he'll come around. i think he will i mean he was coming around alot while you was gone but now that you're out i dont think he'll come around that often. tay i know you dont like him. and i feel like its all my fault you dont like him. i hate that the reason you dont like him is mostly cause of what he did to me. but i dont expect you to act like you like him around her cause you dont like ike. well im glad you wont say anything bad about him around her. you can always say all the bad things you wanna say about him to me. i love you tay <3

ha! i know i forgot but i did talk about her so its not like i left her completely out. ha. i do make her feel comfy..i just didnt know what to say but i wanna be her friend cause i need a girl to talk too. no matter how much you might act like a girl your not one *sticks tongue out*

im really worried about zac. he's like slipping away and i miss him. gosh im so glad your back. now when ever i wanna hug you or kiss you i can do it whenever i want and thats great. i really didnt know what to do without you <3

[tj_h]

I'm really worried about Zac too. He's my best friend. I can't lose him to this dark cloud hanging over him. Hopefully kaley will be a good influence on him and get him out of shit. She seems to make him smile, if only for a little bit.

I love you Nikki. Don't forget that ok?

[_xonikkiox_]

yeah. i know hes your best friend. we're not going to lose him tay. i wont allow it and neither will you. i think she will be a good influence on him. she's a good soul and she wants to help him he just has to let her to do it. well atleast SHE can get a smile outta him i know i sure can't.

i know you love me and i could never forget that. *sigh* now im worried with ave being back.....i just hope nothing bad happens.

[tj_h]

Yeah she sounds like a good soul. I really can't wait to meet her. Especcially seeing she's the female version of me, what do you expect? *laughs* She makes him smile? Well that's definiately a good sign, i don't even know if i can. With all this stuff, it's becomin harder to get him to smile. I really miss taht smile too.

I'm so bloody worried about that. Like, i have no idea what's going to happen and i'm totally scared of what could happen. As long as you know i love you, that's all that matters. Man, i just don't know how to handle with shit that keep coming back. Like i know she's my sister and i love her, but i just don't like who i am when i'm around/with her. And i'm scared i'll fall back into that habit, that person, ya know?

There's just too much at stake, yet, how could i turn her away? she's family after all and she was Juilet's mother. I can't just deny her that.

[_xonikkiox_]

yeah she does sound like a good soul. i think one version of you is enough. *smirks* yeah i've seen him smile while talking about herso maybe theres still hope yet. i know its becoming harder to get him to smile i can barely get a laugh outta him now a days let alone a smile. i miss his smile and his funny looking grin. Tay you can help him if anyone can its you. you've been where hes at. hell you've been futher gone than his and you came back. if you can do it he can.

im worried about it too. i mean i know you wont do anything with her. but im just worried that something bad is going to happen. i mean everything just got so good all the sudden and usually the good can't come with the bad in this family. i know you love me tay..and just remember i love you. you'll handle just fine you have me to help you handle things you dont have to do it by yourself. tay..you wont turn into the person you was. i know that. you're not that person anymore you dont have any of the person in you anymore. all you gotta do is remember me and the twins and if i dont work then just focus on the twins. you wont slip back into that person i promise. i wont let you.

don't turn her away she's your sister and she needs you. dont deny her...*sigh* do what you think you need to do.