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I probably should not be updating this right now. I've had my ups and downs lately, one of my closer friends went to Europe for 2 weeks, but now she's finally back. Some of my feelings are changing, and I'm talking to people about them, not sure if I will actually disclose them on LJ because they are private; however, they do conflict with my OCD just like other things have in the past before I "matured" which we will leave in quotations. My therapy assignment for this week is to clean my bedroom, well, the room I've been staying in, seeing as I have not stepped foot in the front of my house, including my room, since February (Thank you OCD). I'm not sure my therapist is exactly what I need, and lately, I've been considering in-patient, but I'm more afraid of that hindering my schooling, my performing, and my career (ironic considering my OCD has already hindered all of that :/ ). Career...my praxis exam is tomorrow, to become certified to teach. I should have studied a lot more, I started out doing it, then I just stopped. We will see how this goes, it can't be too bad, I mean, unlike most other people, I studied.