Sep 26, 2010 23:54
things feel so different. i'm not miserable.. but i can't tell if i'm really happy at all. i'm kind of just blah.. school is draining me and when school isn't work is. i finally got put on as a lunch server at work. i start serving thursday. i guess i just feel like no one is around to care or give a shit as to what's going on in my life.
for some reason i keep thinking about the past.. and i wonder if all the choices i've made are the right ones. i think about frank a lot lately. i have no idea why... maybe it's because the last time i felt so alone.. he was the one person i did have. i know i have my friends no matter how distant things get.. but thing's just kind of suck right now.. sometimes i can't tell if everyone else is just busy with their lives, or if it's me that's the problem.. or if they just don't care.
dave and i had an argument.. our fight kind of put our friendship on a hold.. we had our apologies.. but i still feel like it could be another falling out.. he said that i'm the one that changed.. i just don't know. am i the one that has changed?
am i the one that changed? do i need to change?