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[_x_lizzle_x_]

I know i'm being irattional. Because.. that's who i am.
But sometimes dylan makes me sad.
he's not meaning to be.. infact he's trying hard not to be.

Its just that eh. Like today, i finished my essay. ( i said i give up) and i was so excited to tell him.
and he didnt really seem to care that much.. at all.. really.
I also know he thought it wasnt very good.. but he said it was. I wouldn't mind if he'd said it wasnt.. i would of rathered he had than say it's good when it's obviously not.
then he doesnt really talk to me that much..
...seems all we talk about now is sex.
I dont understand sex, i dont understand it.... it still seems very alien to my brain.  but we talk.. a lot when sex is involved.
other than that, there's hardly any words.. like today i tried to get him to talk about other stuff..
and..
it was soo awkward..
he hardly said anything the whole time we were online.
and then he doesnt ask me whats wrong.
just ignores the fact..
and i'm meant to be okay with this kind of stuff?

its like his ignoring me
..like he's faking.

HM..........