everything happens for a.... r e a s o n!!
ok well this might be a long one so i'm not asking anyone to read it cuz its mostly complaining but i just have to get it out lol...
alright well all i wanted to do today was cry... but i tried my best just to keep it in my heart literally started hurting and i had chess pains cuz of the stress...but i just want to make it clear if anyone heard anything about me doing anything friday night i swear its not true i just want people to stop talking about me when they dont know the truth about any of it... and i guess you could call me a hypacrit<-- however you spell it... cuz i did do the same with someone cuz i wasnt there but i did happen to talk to a couple other people about it since they brought it up.. and now i'm not friends with someone over it and i'm just gonna stay out of the gossip cuz its not worth being stressed over... i cant get over how much drama high school brings into my life.... i wanted to rip my hair out today thats how mad i was haha i cant handle it anymore i dont talk to half of the people i use to becuz of rumors and gay shit so i'm done with it all... i got called a bitch and was told everyones mean to me cuz i am a bitch.. but i dont care anymore you can like me or not i'm tired of living up to everyones expectations all i ask is if anyone every hears anything about me please just please come to me and talk about it before you say anything cuz i rather people gossip about me when they know the truth it doesnt make it as dramatic... i dont think today could have been any worse i found out i was just a bet to someone... he did apologize but it still really hurt... i just want to say thanks to the people that tried making me feel better and being there for me to talk to... lyndsi god i love you... quita my girl lol... darrin your soo tight thanks for saying you'll let everyone know the truth it means alot.. sarah with the whole firday night think glad we talked about it and i can relate to you in sooo many ways i love you... melissa and shand for talking to me at school about it since they were lucky and didnt get a mean ass note even tho i was talking to them when someone heard me say something haha i love you too... and thanks matt moore for trying to be there even tho i'm still kinda upset and didnt really talk to much to you about it and KENDRA who i hung out with after school she made me feel better i love that girl... and all the people that commented on my last entry like danielle lindsay p. and jamie thanks guys!!
wow now that that was long as hell lol but i'm gonna go i just wanted to get out that i hated life today but thanks to some people i'm learning not to care what people say cuz that all people know how to do is talk their shit instead of coming to me first..
anyways... i miss a bunch of people like i see them everyday and we just walk by like we dont even know each other.. some of the people i use to be the closet too.. it kinda sucks i just keep telling meself everything happens for a reason but i havent figured any of those reason out yet!!
alrighty bye everyone hope you have a great night!!