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i cant stop shaking
and thinking of joe
its making me sick to my stomac
i want nothing more than to be with him again
i wanna see him smile again
and talk to me and tell me what i did wrong cuz i wanna fix things
ill admit im wrong even if i didnt do ne thing just so he will forgive me
and i just wanna idk i cant stop going into dryheaves nd crying and i dont know i just fuck idk i want things to be okay again he said i would never lose him but i did and i dont know what im going to do.... prolly go into a deep depression and i hate it i just idk fuck i i i idont know nd i just shit i wanna fix everything and be with him but he dusnt wanna be with me nd joe nd brian wont pick up their fones so idk i just i want everthing to be okay and i want just to be with him and have things be okay but they prolly never will and i just i fucked up and this time i really messed up and idk i hate it i wanna be with him so fucking bad and i just wnat him to talk to me so i can fix what i fucked up but he wont listen to me and i just fuck idk idk idk idk i hate it i do i want to be with him but idk i cant and thats not fair and life isnt fair anyways but idk i just idk i wanna fix it and just idk how to so i want him to tell me what i can do to fix it but he wont talk to me and idk idk ikd ikd and idk brian dustnt even wanna seem like he wants to talk to me so idk i just fuck fuck FUCK idk idk idk idk idk ikd im an emotional mess and i just wanna die and i want him to call me nd tell me i fucked up but he wont he never will i just idk ne more
i think idk shit fuck fuck shit shitttt fuckerehreouifer;gwe
JOE I LOVE YOU AND I WISH YOU WOULD TALK TO ME AND TELL ME WHATS GOING ON CUZ I CANT READ YOUR FUCKING MIND AND YOU ALWAYS TELL ME TO BE OPEN AND TELL YOU EVERYTHING AND I DO SO WHY CANT YOU CUZ THATS VERY HYPROTICAL NOT TEELING ME AND TALKING TO ME BUT WHAT FUCKING EVER I JUST IDK I HOPE YOU FORGIVE ME FOR WHAT EVER I FUCKING DID WRONG ANF WILL TAKE ME BACK CUZ IM LOST WITH OUT YOU AND I DONT KNOW WHAT IM GOING TO DO YOU MEAN EVERYTHING TO ME AND ITS DRIVING ME CRAZY AND MAKING ME SO SICK NOT BEING WITH YOU AND I JUST WANNA BE WITH YOU AGAIN SEE YOUR SMILE AGAIN KISS YOU AGAIN HUG YOU AGAIN AT LEAST TALK TO U OR BE IN THE SAME ROOM AS U AGAIN! BUT NO FUCKING BE A JACKASS ND NOT TELL ME WHAT I DID SO I CAN TRY TO FIX SHIT OKAY I HOPE YOUR HAPPY CAUSING ME THIS MUCH PAIN AND JUST FUCK YOU!
and thinking of joe
its making me sick to my stomac
i want nothing more than to be with him again
i wanna see him smile again
and talk to me and tell me what i did wrong cuz i wanna fix things
ill admit im wrong even if i didnt do ne thing just so he will forgive me
and i just wanna idk i cant stop going into dryheaves nd crying and i dont know i just fuck idk i want things to be okay again he said i would never lose him but i did and i dont know what im going to do.... prolly go into a deep depression and i hate it i just idk fuck i i i idont know nd i just shit i wanna fix everything and be with him but he dusnt wanna be with me nd joe nd brian wont pick up their fones so idk i just i want everthing to be okay and i want just to be with him and have things be okay but they prolly never will and i just i fucked up and this time i really messed up and idk i hate it i wanna be with him so fucking bad and i just wnat him to talk to me so i can fix what i fucked up but he wont listen to me and i just fuck idk idk idk idk i hate it i do i want to be with him but idk i cant and thats not fair and life isnt fair anyways but idk i just idk i wanna fix it and just idk how to so i want him to tell me what i can do to fix it but he wont talk to me and idk idk ikd ikd and idk brian dustnt even wanna seem like he wants to talk to me so idk i just fuck fuck FUCK idk idk idk idk idk ikd im an emotional mess and i just wanna die and i want him to call me nd tell me i fucked up but he wont he never will i just idk ne more
i think idk shit fuck fuck shit shitttt fuckerehreouifer;gwe
JOE I LOVE YOU AND I WISH YOU WOULD TALK TO ME AND TELL ME WHATS GOING ON CUZ I CANT READ YOUR FUCKING MIND AND YOU ALWAYS TELL ME TO BE OPEN AND TELL YOU EVERYTHING AND I DO SO WHY CANT YOU CUZ THATS VERY HYPROTICAL NOT TEELING ME AND TALKING TO ME BUT WHAT FUCKING EVER I JUST IDK I HOPE YOU FORGIVE ME FOR WHAT EVER I FUCKING DID WRONG ANF WILL TAKE ME BACK CUZ IM LOST WITH OUT YOU AND I DONT KNOW WHAT IM GOING TO DO YOU MEAN EVERYTHING TO ME AND ITS DRIVING ME CRAZY AND MAKING ME SO SICK NOT BEING WITH YOU AND I JUST WANNA BE WITH YOU AGAIN SEE YOUR SMILE AGAIN KISS YOU AGAIN HUG YOU AGAIN AT LEAST TALK TO U OR BE IN THE SAME ROOM AS U AGAIN! BUT NO FUCKING BE A JACKASS ND NOT TELL ME WHAT I DID SO I CAN TRY TO FIX SHIT OKAY I HOPE YOUR HAPPY CAUSING ME THIS MUCH PAIN AND JUST FUCK YOU!