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joe idk
last night we were talking nd he wanted to take a break so brian could go out with me cuz he wanted brian to be happy so i called brian nd hes like oh i dont think i wanna ne more cuz im killing that part of my self off so im like okay so i called joe back im like can i please have u back now cuz theres nothing gunna happen between me nd brian hes like no... no no no bye
but the thing was i guess idk brian told me earlier that day that joe cheeted on me but he thought i knew cuz he was like wow he cheeted on u nd he was flirting with another girl how the fuck are u still with him im like what? hes like didnt joe call u nd tell u nd appoligize im like no if he did call me nd tell me that i would have dumped him so i called joe nd was like yeah what the fuck hes like i swear i called u i know i did im like if u did we wouldnt be talking right now or going out so hes like then who did i call nd then im talking to brian later that night nd joe called brians cell hes like im gunna be a cold person to her im not gunna call her or be friends with her or ne thing so wow i lost the one person i cared most about cuz he thinks i was lying when i said he didnt call me buut why would i bring it up if he did call me cuz i would wanna keep that in the past but what ever i was up all night crying and throwing up cuz im so sick nd now idk the bad thing is is that i still wanna be with joe idk i still love him nd yeah idk why im putting up with all this shit but what ever i dont wanna let go so now idk nd tomorrow is our 2nd month well would be our 2nd month but what ever brian said that to just give him time nd not call him or ne thing nd he will be joe again but idk this sucks nd i hate it nd ah fuck idk nd yeah UGH what the fuck but yeah brian wants to come over today cuz no school cuz of the fucking school but idk if he dus then he dus if he dusnt then what ever but idk i really want joe back i really do idk what im guanna do im have a emotional crisis nd wow he idk fuck i just hope hes happy nd takes me back i really do but i dont know why i even wanna get back with him idk i just =(
there is nothing more just wait it out
crying
throwing up
nd hoping that everthing will be better soon
last night we were talking nd he wanted to take a break so brian could go out with me cuz he wanted brian to be happy so i called brian nd hes like oh i dont think i wanna ne more cuz im killing that part of my self off so im like okay so i called joe back im like can i please have u back now cuz theres nothing gunna happen between me nd brian hes like no... no no no bye
but the thing was i guess idk brian told me earlier that day that joe cheeted on me but he thought i knew cuz he was like wow he cheeted on u nd he was flirting with another girl how the fuck are u still with him im like what? hes like didnt joe call u nd tell u nd appoligize im like no if he did call me nd tell me that i would have dumped him so i called joe nd was like yeah what the fuck hes like i swear i called u i know i did im like if u did we wouldnt be talking right now or going out so hes like then who did i call nd then im talking to brian later that night nd joe called brians cell hes like im gunna be a cold person to her im not gunna call her or be friends with her or ne thing so wow i lost the one person i cared most about cuz he thinks i was lying when i said he didnt call me buut why would i bring it up if he did call me cuz i would wanna keep that in the past but what ever i was up all night crying and throwing up cuz im so sick nd now idk the bad thing is is that i still wanna be with joe idk i still love him nd yeah idk why im putting up with all this shit but what ever i dont wanna let go so now idk nd tomorrow is our 2nd month well would be our 2nd month but what ever brian said that to just give him time nd not call him or ne thing nd he will be joe again but idk this sucks nd i hate it nd ah fuck idk nd yeah UGH what the fuck but yeah brian wants to come over today cuz no school cuz of the fucking school but idk if he dus then he dus if he dusnt then what ever but idk i really want joe back i really do idk what im guanna do im have a emotional crisis nd wow he idk fuck i just hope hes happy nd takes me back i really do but i dont know why i even wanna get back with him idk i just =(
there is nothing more just wait it out
crying
throwing up
nd hoping that everthing will be better soon