the worst is when i wake up six times during the night because of a dream i am having of us that will not go away despite several pee trips, cups of water
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More than anything though, I want to be what you need from me... and not a walking display of needs myself. Something inside me, dispite the fact that Ive wanted you since the day I met you, knows that you could really have a boyfreind if you wanted. Your beauty makes it hard not to think selfishly about you... to feel jealous when you wanna go on a walk with a new boy or when you are in love with a boy who doesnt deserve it. But I wonder if im the kind of guy who deserves that from you. I dont know what its like to always be in a relationship, but I don't believe you need one Christin. I don't think you've been "left to" anything like that or reduced down to anything. You've been strengthened, and when you strengthen yourself you often feel weak or lost more than ever right before it hits you how strong you've become. You'll see it. I do. Not to brag, but I have a natural knack for perception of personality traits. I think you can take on the world. And I want to be here rooting you on. The lonely boy at the other end of this cold unforgiving universe that wants nothing more than to be close to you. Not to take anything from you or to use you as a means for my own emotional or physical satisfaction... but just to know you. Anything and everything I can know about who YOU are in that immaculate mind of yours and just love you. Unconditionally. Thats what I am for you. You are beauty in the eyes of this beholder. All in all its romance... pure.... unjaded, and without walls. You deserve it and so much more.
I'd leave this all behind so quickly, ya know?
More than anything though, I want to be what you need from me... and not a walking display of needs myself. Something inside me, dispite the fact that Ive wanted you since the day I met you, knows that you could really have a boyfreind if you wanted. Your beauty makes it hard not to think selfishly about you... to feel jealous when you wanna go on a walk with a new boy or when you are in love with a boy who doesnt deserve it. But I wonder if im the kind of guy who deserves that from you. I dont know what its like to always be in a relationship, but I don't believe you need one Christin. I don't think you've been "left to" anything like that or reduced down to anything. You've been strengthened, and when you strengthen yourself you often feel weak or lost more than ever right before it hits you how strong you've become. You'll see it. I do. Not to brag, but I have a natural knack for perception of personality traits. I think you can take on the world. And I want to be here rooting you on. The lonely boy at the other end of this cold unforgiving universe that wants nothing more than to be close to you. Not to take anything from you or to use you as a means for my own emotional or physical satisfaction... but just to know you. Anything and everything I can know about who YOU are in that immaculate mind of yours and just love you. Unconditionally. Thats what I am for you. You are beauty in the eyes of this beholder. All in all its romance... pure.... unjaded, and without walls. You deserve it and so much more.
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thank you josh, those words mean more than you will ever know
<3
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Goodnight, dear. Im feeling odd. Callin in early. Call me up if bored.
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