for the last time!!

[_waste_]

the worst is when i wake up six times during the night because of a dream i am having of us that will not go away despite several pee trips, cups of water.
well i WAS 99.999 percent over this whole issue, but now its on my mind again,
which is really really great.
thank you my love, you really light up my life. shit!

i miss home incredibly right about now and i have got this undeniable urge to sneak out to my car and just leave, which would leave me in a bad situation because i would not have enough money to get back, and i really should study, and i could not miss my finals, that would be tragic!!
i will just have to wait until thursday.

i wish that i had a boy who could take me away from all of this,
my inablity to function without a relationship is quite ridiculous, i know.
but that is where he has gotten me to, and its so unfortunate.
I need something to prove to me that i deserve better.
oh, and id really like some lips to kiss while im at it.

i would even make him a boquet of flowers!



ps.
i love the softies a whole lot,
but not more than eisley, of course!
so silly!!!??!