a girl can dream, right?
right now. i am pissed off. i am pissed off at bean. it starts out because i'm staying home tonight. he wants me to come over, but i'm at my grand-parents house playing card games. so i insist that i call him back because #1- he's drunk #2- i don't wanna have a convo in the middle of a game [how rude]... so then the drunk ass proceeds to hang up on me TWICE and then gets mad at me for getting mad at him.... i believe you are the asshole in this situation, sir. so shut the fuck up. the last text he sent me says exactly this "listen, i don't wanna fight. i think u need 2 relax. and be cool.i think we're gonna have 2 talk nexttime we see eachother." ummmm. eat some fucking ball hair. i'm not relaxing or apologizing or being told that i am wrong. i know i am right. i told him that if he EVER hangs up on me again it will be the last time he talks to me, he said "i guess so". what does that mean? advjieobhv;pdabqtrn.
i'm so torn because he's the nicest guy everrrrrrrr.... but not when he's drunk. when he's sober he makes me laugh. he makes sure i'm ok before he does anything. he calls me just to say hello. he knows how to handle me when i get goofy. he can handle my sarcasm/bitchiness. gahhhh! i just wish he didn't get drunk like that. its not even like he gets drunk like this all the time, but its often enough to hurt my feelings or have something come out the "wrong way" at least once every week. most of the time he's too drunk to remember in the am. and then in the am he's back to normal nice guy.
so he says we need to talk the next time we see eachother................... the last time a boyfriend said this to me was bryant, 3 years ago, on christmas eve, on the phone, and he ended up just breaking up with me right then and there. grrrreat. this isn't going to be pretty. so i'm going to put it off as long as i can. we'll see how long i can last without going over there. [actually, we'll see how he is tomorrow... when he's NOT drunk.]
gah. i wanna cry/punch something/die/just give up and apologize/never talk to him again.
i guess this is kind of good though? the first fight ever and its 2 months into the relationship...
hopefully, he'll apologize and then never be an asshole to me again.... not likely, but eh, i can dream.