each careful step, along the byway
i doubt anyone reads this though. i'm not as obnoxious as i used to be, i lay down dead and i don't even smell as i rot.
so. after complaining so much in my original livejournal, (OLJ, muthafuckas) i decided to BREAK OUT THE OLDNEW JOURNAL! for further complaints and FUN! FOOD! AND PRIZES! (client makes no real claims)
ANYWAY:
i think everyone in this college idea is being ridiculous.
i think no one knows exactly what we're doing. which is a real shame, considering its my future and all.
now, in terms of what I want (which, no ones asking for THAT input) i'd like to go to cuny.
it's a good opp(ppppppp)urtunity to get out of here.
and a good alternative to being homeless and off insurance.
and if i dont go, i won't get the oppurtunity to go away to school because i'll be sealed into a state school by my parents.
truth be told, i welcome the independence. i love the idea of being out of dutchess county for more than a few days, and not dreading coming home soon. it's a great oppurtunity thing and i'd love to just get on the ship quick before it starts to sink.
but
wow. broke out the new/old journal again, for a hot minute.
apparently this is the last thing i was in the middle of posting?
from god knows when.
ah. memories!
i look back and reread these entries, from a time i thought of myself as being pretty sane.
someone said at the women's poetry conference, "we never remember anything. we reinvent it."
ugh. i can't even really read them all. i'm kind of really disgusted with myself.
jesus christ, did you LOOK at my old skool icons, too? ah!
but i'm back to veganism again, back to being single again, back to feeling almost feeling like the last....two or three years of my life were a dream. or a coma, or something.
and so, _veganrella_ gets revisited!
all prior/any new entries are now friendslocked to protect all former participants from outside eyes (watch me flatter myself!) but open enough to stay in memories. even though i can reinvent them technically on livejournal too.
i'm debating about getting this thing back into use again.
so. after complaining so much in my original livejournal, (OLJ, muthafuckas) i decided to BREAK OUT THE OLDNEW JOURNAL! for further complaints and FUN! FOOD! AND PRIZES! (client makes no real claims)
ANYWAY:
i think everyone in this college idea is being ridiculous.
i think no one knows exactly what we're doing. which is a real shame, considering its my future and all.
now, in terms of what I want (which, no ones asking for THAT input) i'd like to go to cuny.
it's a good opp(ppppppp)urtunity to get out of here.
and a good alternative to being homeless and off insurance.
and if i dont go, i won't get the oppurtunity to go away to school because i'll be sealed into a state school by my parents.
truth be told, i welcome the independence. i love the idea of being out of dutchess county for more than a few days, and not dreading coming home soon. it's a great oppurtunity thing and i'd love to just get on the ship quick before it starts to sink.
but
wow. broke out the new/old journal again, for a hot minute.
apparently this is the last thing i was in the middle of posting?
from god knows when.
ah. memories!
i look back and reread these entries, from a time i thought of myself as being pretty sane.
someone said at the women's poetry conference, "we never remember anything. we reinvent it."
ugh. i can't even really read them all. i'm kind of really disgusted with myself.
jesus christ, did you LOOK at my old skool icons, too? ah!
but i'm back to veganism again, back to being single again, back to feeling almost feeling like the last....two or three years of my life were a dream. or a coma, or something.
and so, _veganrella_ gets revisited!
all prior/any new entries are now friendslocked to protect all former participants from outside eyes (watch me flatter myself!) but open enough to stay in memories. even though i can reinvent them technically on livejournal too.
i'm debating about getting this thing back into use again.