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People espically exgirlfriends and others really fucking suck and need to go to hell!! I hate drama and I always try to stay out of it.. but when people come to my own home and start shit when I'm drunk and with my two best friends.. thats fucked up! I got sooooo mad last sunday night.. You could hear me screaming a mile away.. I sugest that is anyone dares to come to my house ever again and trys to take my best friends away from me making her chose between us.. that you go to hell because you are one fucked up person.. I really have no idea what to think of this all except for being really bloody pissed off. I cant trust the closest person to me anymore.. In fact the only real people I can trust at this momment are Sheila and Walter because there the only two that dont bring in drama and the only ones that have actually been there for me.. Altough none of my friends can really understand what I'm going through for the past year and more it doesnt matter.. Whats that really saying about me.. I think I need some new people in my life but the only people I can think of.. it's impossiable.. I hate being happy because now I really know that every happyness comes to an end and that end is more sad then you were happy.. trust me.. I didnt do shit.. I dont want to hurt anymore and I dont want to make people feel hurt or shameful.. All I can say is that I senced all of this.. And I really fucking hate it.. I just have to remmber that I cant controle other people and their decisions, all I can do is try to feel how ever the fuck I feel and deal with it! Fuck this shit.. I swear sometimes I wish things would end and the only way I can think of is to DIE.. Sorry if I affended most.. If melody reads this she can go to hell for all I care.