Feb 13, 2005 11:39
So Friday night me and Jacob went on a double date (aww)
with Madi n Chris at Applebees. Then we went back to my house to just
hang out and talk. We watched a movie and ended up falling asleep. When
I woke him up he had to go home. So when he was driving home, he was
still half asleep. He steered off the road went into the other lane of
oncoming traffic and ended up in a little ditch... about 3 ft away from
a big concrete wall. If he would have hit that, he could be dead right
now. I was sooo scared. No more late nights for him unless hes staying
the night.
So a tow truck came next morning and got the car. And first thing he
did... was come over before i had to go to work. I dont know what
happened but we got into this deep serious discussion that didnt end
well and i ended up going to work so upset, still wiping the tears off
my face. I mean, i honest dont know what to do about this... I really
dont
I am lost
But I think that if me and Jacob decide to take a break... it wont be the end. Theres
just something about me and him. We just fit, and it feels normal and
like we belong together. Maybe we need time apart to see if we can work
through this and if i can get over it and forgive him.
He didnt cheat on me.
I can tell you that much. If that ever happened... it would be over forever. I wont tolerate cheating, EVER.
So on another note... i needed a nice break from shit last night after
working a long ass day til 9. Me and Madi went to a little bonfire
gathering
did the damn thing
And it was pretty straight :) And me and her are about to
get out and do something.Ta Ta for now. <~ my mom keeps saying that.
Shes trying to be cool or something, what a cutie.