Finally it's Over
I'm just sittin around getting ready for my date this evening and i got a hankering to update. I'm just looking back on all the things that happened this week. It was absolutely horrible. Right away on Monday I knew it was gonna be the worst week ever, and damn if it wasnt. Monday I learned about Greg passing away. I didnt really know him but I did meet him a buncha times and It's just so sad when somebody just dies like that. I am soooo sorry Samantha, and I am so sorry for Joann. Please tell her. I know she'll find the strength to make it through this. It's a really hard time, and my heart goes out to everybody affected by his death.
This week was also probably the worst for me and Jacob. I've never had this trust problem before. I know that he loves me and doesnt want to hurt me. And no he didnt cheat on me. This whole thing that happened was just so hard on me. And he finally understands. He knows hes messing up. I know hes trying and I know that he loves me. But he's gotta stop and get his act togetether cuz I cant take it. I refuse to make a fool of myself. I'm not gonna let this happen. If me and Jacob were to break up... thatd be it for high school. I;m so serious. I am so tired of letting myself go for the sake of falling in love and then getting kicked in the ass in the end. And I wont let it happen again. High school relationships are probably the stupidest things possible that people could put themselves through. Youre just asking to get your heartbroken... just asking for it. Jacob has a lot to make up to me as of now. He knows how i feel... he knows what i think about the situation, and until he proves me otherwise its gonna be a problem. We're headed off to dinner tonight, I know he's gonna try really hard to make me happy. But I cant get this thing out of my head. But it would be nice to just go out with him and have a good time and not think about it. I'm sure it'll be fine. I just cant see us breaking up. It's gotten way too serious for that.
So beyond all that....
Yesterday i had to go to the worst possible place to be other than hell... the dentist. I had to get a cavity filled and my gum is still sore from the shot :(. And I have to go back in a month cuz I have some possible cavities but they arent quite yet so we gotta get everthing all fixed up. This is yet another reason why you dont drink soda! I'm being so good... Ive cut down to 1 or 2 every 2 weeks. And i already feel healthier. It's incredible!
Until next time ;)
This week was also probably the worst for me and Jacob. I've never had this trust problem before. I know that he loves me and doesnt want to hurt me. And no he didnt cheat on me. This whole thing that happened was just so hard on me. And he finally understands. He knows hes messing up. I know hes trying and I know that he loves me. But he's gotta stop and get his act togetether cuz I cant take it. I refuse to make a fool of myself. I'm not gonna let this happen. If me and Jacob were to break up... thatd be it for high school. I;m so serious. I am so tired of letting myself go for the sake of falling in love and then getting kicked in the ass in the end. And I wont let it happen again. High school relationships are probably the stupidest things possible that people could put themselves through. Youre just asking to get your heartbroken... just asking for it. Jacob has a lot to make up to me as of now. He knows how i feel... he knows what i think about the situation, and until he proves me otherwise its gonna be a problem. We're headed off to dinner tonight, I know he's gonna try really hard to make me happy. But I cant get this thing out of my head. But it would be nice to just go out with him and have a good time and not think about it. I'm sure it'll be fine. I just cant see us breaking up. It's gotten way too serious for that.
So beyond all that....
Yesterday i had to go to the worst possible place to be other than hell... the dentist. I had to get a cavity filled and my gum is still sore from the shot :(. And I have to go back in a month cuz I have some possible cavities but they arent quite yet so we gotta get everthing all fixed up. This is yet another reason why you dont drink soda! I'm being so good... Ive cut down to 1 or 2 every 2 weeks. And i already feel healthier. It's incredible!
Until next time ;)