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Its been a really up and down couple of weeks, but today for the first time in ages i actually feel really good about myself. Ive come to the conclusion that im happy with who i am and where im going, and i dont really care what other people think anymore.
Im not going to get upset anymore that theres people out there speading rumors about me, because to tell you the truth, they can go fuck themselves, the people that truly know me and truly care will still always be there for me no matter what. Its taken me a long time to figure out who these people are, and theres still some that im trying to figure out but im getting closer.
I had one of the best nights ive had in a long time last night, it was good to catch up with alot of people again, and im going to stop pushing them away, im over doing that.
Its really great to be talking to a certain someone again, i really missed her and its just really great to have you here for me again.
Theres only one other person that im really not speaking to at the moment, and thats because i dont think i really need him in my life anymore, as hard as ive tryed over the years, he always has a way of making me feel so small and insignificant, and at the moment im happy with out that. It just seemed to be that anything i did was never good enough for him, he always had a way of putting the blame on me for every single fight that we had, well im sick of it and im not going to stand for it anymore.
My grandma died at the start of last week and her funeral was last thursday, it was pritty upsetting at the time, but not fot the reasons i thought it would be. I was more upset because there were all these people around me that had happy memories of her, and i was upset that i didnt have them, and now ill just never have the chance.
Then it was my birthday on friday, went out for dinner with my dads side of the family that night, it was actually really good. For the first time that i can remember my dad actually told me he was proud of me and that he loved me. I had almost thought that i would never get those words from him in my lifetime, but i suppose he proved me wrong. Hes so much happier now, and were becoming really close again.
Theres been a few other things that have happened but nothing really worth saying in here.
Talk to everyone soon
Chris
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Boys Are Stupid.....Throw Rocks At Them
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Im not going to get upset anymore that theres people out there speading rumors about me, because to tell you the truth, they can go fuck themselves, the people that truly know me and truly care will still always be there for me no matter what. Its taken me a long time to figure out who these people are, and theres still some that im trying to figure out but im getting closer.
I had one of the best nights ive had in a long time last night, it was good to catch up with alot of people again, and im going to stop pushing them away, im over doing that.
Its really great to be talking to a certain someone again, i really missed her and its just really great to have you here for me again.
Theres only one other person that im really not speaking to at the moment, and thats because i dont think i really need him in my life anymore, as hard as ive tryed over the years, he always has a way of making me feel so small and insignificant, and at the moment im happy with out that. It just seemed to be that anything i did was never good enough for him, he always had a way of putting the blame on me for every single fight that we had, well im sick of it and im not going to stand for it anymore.
My grandma died at the start of last week and her funeral was last thursday, it was pritty upsetting at the time, but not fot the reasons i thought it would be. I was more upset because there were all these people around me that had happy memories of her, and i was upset that i didnt have them, and now ill just never have the chance.
Then it was my birthday on friday, went out for dinner with my dads side of the family that night, it was actually really good. For the first time that i can remember my dad actually told me he was proud of me and that he loved me. I had almost thought that i would never get those words from him in my lifetime, but i suppose he proved me wrong. Hes so much happier now, and were becoming really close again.
Theres been a few other things that have happened but nothing really worth saying in here.
Talk to everyone soon
Chris
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Boys Are Stupid.....Throw Rocks At Them
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