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[_tiny_dancer_]

Well, it's been a little while and a lot has happened. i have tons of stuff to talk about, none of which i really feel like actually talking about. umm... we got third at beta. it's kinda weird, but i actually enjoyed the company of mrs moore more than winning i think. at least it has been the lasting feeling. now it's just like "oh yeah, we won." but it's still like "mrs moore's fun to talk to at 12:30 while we're waiting for Freeman to sneak in". haha good stuff. at the beta dance i danced my ass off (not that that was all that hard) and Cat has the embarassing pics to prove it. got in a big "fight" with mom and once again mrs moore kinda etched herself in my memory. i try not to get upset about my mom and her bitchyness, but when that happened it took all i had not to cry and everyone who saw me knew it. Mrs Moore asked later if i was ok, because "i've just never seen you like that and the mother in me worries about you." i dunno, it's weird. i found myself today more interested in talking to her than to the other students. but then i guess i've always been like that. Swain being the prime example. I love Swain. I dunno if she knows it, but she's my best friend. and Dana and Cat i guess... it's really hard for me to define a "best friend" anyhow. i dont even know what i'm talking about right now. i'm really kind of in a depressed mood. dont even really know why. the only thing i can figure is i watched W&G tonight and it was the Valentines special, and i HATE valentines day and that just made me lonely. i hate being lonely. it's about that time of year where i get wishing i had someone. it literally happens this time every year, ever since 7th grade. i can only come up with one reason, but it's a stupid one. i'm not even gonna waste time trying to believe it.

oh and we signed up for classes yesterday. what fun. i hate that stupid school.

well i'm good and depressed and i'm going to bed now.

Court