aaaaaaaaand life.
So today was the first day of school. Actually, it was orientation. I walked in, seeing a bunch of people I didn't care for, found my group of friends, and started to feel mildly suicidal.
Summer is really over for me.
I get thoroughly depressed during the school year. I don't know what it is about it, everything just catches up to me. And this was NOT the happiest summer on record for me, either. Ughhh I just have bad feelings left and right about this year.
Except for the cruise. That's going to be extremely entertaining.
But that's not until the very end of the school year.
To make matters worse, something got screwed up in the guidance office- so currently I don't have books, a schedule, or a locker. And I'm not on the list for marching band either, so TECHNICALLY the only people who know I'm at the school as a student are those randomers in the counselor's office.
That makes me a bit uneasy.
I'm just worrying about every little thing possible.
I got really down today and listened to my sad cd on repeat. I kind of want to say it was therapeutic, but in actuality, I don't think it was. When I get into a crap mood, I just bring myself down even more.
It is supremely unhealthy.
And I feel like all my entries have been the same lately--- me whining about how my life sucks.
I've come to the conclusion that I'm like every other spoiled white suburban teenager.
Except that I'm not?
Thank God for myspace.
Myspace and my booty call are the only things I have to look forward to.
That's what life has come to. Contentment through online profiles and demeaning, empty, emotionless sex.
I don't think I'm going to update anymore until I actually see a pattern forming in my entries in which there is actually a variety of emotions I express from post to post. That may take a while. My melancholy rants are just becoming redundant.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand life.
Summer is really over for me.
I get thoroughly depressed during the school year. I don't know what it is about it, everything just catches up to me. And this was NOT the happiest summer on record for me, either. Ughhh I just have bad feelings left and right about this year.
Except for the cruise. That's going to be extremely entertaining.
But that's not until the very end of the school year.
To make matters worse, something got screwed up in the guidance office- so currently I don't have books, a schedule, or a locker. And I'm not on the list for marching band either, so TECHNICALLY the only people who know I'm at the school as a student are those randomers in the counselor's office.
That makes me a bit uneasy.
I'm just worrying about every little thing possible.
I got really down today and listened to my sad cd on repeat. I kind of want to say it was therapeutic, but in actuality, I don't think it was. When I get into a crap mood, I just bring myself down even more.
It is supremely unhealthy.
And I feel like all my entries have been the same lately--- me whining about how my life sucks.
I've come to the conclusion that I'm like every other spoiled white suburban teenager.
Except that I'm not?
Thank God for myspace.
Myspace and my booty call are the only things I have to look forward to.
That's what life has come to. Contentment through online profiles and demeaning, empty, emotionless sex.
I don't think I'm going to update anymore until I actually see a pattern forming in my entries in which there is actually a variety of emotions I express from post to post. That may take a while. My melancholy rants are just becoming redundant.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand life.