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sometimes i see your screen name log on or i'm looking through some papers and i recognize your handwriting and the first thought that jumps into my head is i hate her but then i realize, or i think i realize, that that's not true and i'll still be here when everyone else is gone, still waiting for you to come back and to be my friend again, and then maybe i think that you'll remember that there was no reason for you to leave in the first place. and sometimes i just sit here at the computer waiting for you to read my away message and realize exactly what it means, wait for you to wake up and see. and then sometimes i just want to fall asleep and never wake up until everything is back to 7th grade and nothing was the way it is now.