What the deuce?!?!

[_special_needs_]

I don't know what to do. I know this shouldn't be difficult to decide but it is. Just certain things bring that fire back into my heart, but then...I think twice and it hurts me more than ever. *bangs head on desk "Die Die Die"*
Bleh what to do what to do!
Do i just let fate decide what I should do?