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I don't miss Oregon City nearly as much as I thought I did.
I'm trying to grow up.
I don't miss the inability to effect change. I don't miss most of the memories.
But I do miss feeling like I had a place.
But I realize that I didn't even feel like that there.
I don't know.
I guess I'm waiting, but I'm not expecting anything, and I can't just wait for everything.
I feel like this school is just high school only the buildings are spread out and I care about my grades.
And that is very new for me.
I never used to freak the fuck out over my GPA and how I missed two questions on my test.
I guess it's not bad.
Different.
I love Elizabeth.
I wish my family would say they would visit me or they miss me, even if they won't and they only think about me when we text.
I wish we weren't scared to hold hands in public because "this is Lewis County, and you just don't do that here."
I am so grateful for what I have been given.
I'm trying to grow up.
I don't miss the inability to effect change. I don't miss most of the memories.
But I do miss feeling like I had a place.
But I realize that I didn't even feel like that there.
I don't know.
I guess I'm waiting, but I'm not expecting anything, and I can't just wait for everything.
I feel like this school is just high school only the buildings are spread out and I care about my grades.
And that is very new for me.
I never used to freak the fuck out over my GPA and how I missed two questions on my test.
I guess it's not bad.
Different.
I love Elizabeth.
I wish my family would say they would visit me or they miss me, even if they won't and they only think about me when we text.
I wish we weren't scared to hold hands in public because "this is Lewis County, and you just don't do that here."
I am so grateful for what I have been given.