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[_sorsha_]

Well, saturday i was totally looking forward to hanging out with my buds at the ritz and doing dinner before hand. however, peter and i decided to head up there an hour early to see if we couldnt get a good parking spot, set up at the restaurant and just chill. When we got there though, it was crazy. More than once Peter had to watch out for people

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[_sorsha_]

well, that isnt even waiting until grad school is over to have kids. i will be 24 when peter gets out of law school. And he as it looks now will have over 80,000$ in debt to pay back for school loans. not exactly a condusive environment to start having kids in. And there is no money with a psych MA really. its all with the PhD which i will have to try and get while pregnant if i hope to get my PhD at all.

AND marriage isnt even a possibility because im going to be here for my MA since i went ahead and have made my ties and started all my research. and i dont work and i dont have any experience so i would have to take a lower paying job and figuring in gas mileage it would barely make it worth it all especially since it would be risking my education to try and juggle it all.

SO, moving isnt an option bc how will i pay for rent? and i would have to have a place that tanks dogs AND large fish tanks.

AND peter is going to be in PENNYSLYVANIA so even if he DID want to get married im not sure how long distance MARRIAGES hold up.

AND on top of that he is in no shape or interest in the whole "marriage" thing right now.

so THAT is not an option. which is a stress too. but i mean hey, i cant do much other than do what i am doing now and let him do his thing there. visit as often as i can and then after my MA i can see about a PhD up there if he decides that is where he wants to be.

******stress********* and i TOTALLY went psycho emotionally on him, just crying my heart out yesterday and he did put alot of my fears to rest. but i am SUPER stressed this month.

I leave for singapore May 3rd return June 1st. so it will be good to step out of the box for awhile. I mean hey, i went away last time, returned, realized Jay wasnt so great and fixed it. Maybe when i return ill realize i dont have to control everything and that Pete and I can tackle this thing either way.

[supercat912]

We girls have a tendency to fret over these things, but like you said there is no point in getting worked up about it because there is nothing you can do about it right now anyway. Stuff like this has a tendency to work itself out...so just take it one day at a time! You never know what oppertunities may pop up 6 months from now.