Nov 20, 2005 11:22
There are so many backstabbing people in the world, so much confusion
i dont know who to believe, i can't tell whether some people are my friends or not, sometimes people are so nice and then they flip over on their dark side and everything is different. i trust people, they stop liking me, or backstab me, they pretend to be my friend again, i forgive them, then they backstab me again over an over, so i get mad, i put my foot down, i say thats enough i can't be with you anymore because i know your just gonna do that over an over, an everyone gets mad. EVERYONE BUTS IN AN TAKES SIDES AND ALL OF A SUDDEN,
i am the enemy.
i was the one who drove them away, i was the one who hurt them, i was the bad person.
well i guess you are bad person you are a really really bad person because ya im bad but i dont think ive ever made anyone as mad as you have made me an i realize now that whether i forgive you or not, they will never forgive me because i am already labeled bad so i might as well speak my mind because its the only thing that i can really rely on.
its weird cuz this post makes me seem hella angsty and, well, a bad person but i am over caring what other people think because im never going to be able to make anyone happy so i might as well stop trying, but i reallly wish i had a rock because i feel like im a peice of seaweed in the water with nothing to attach too so i just float along and once an a while ill find something that looks like a rock and ill settle on it an think ive finally found home and then it will move and i realize it wasn't a rock just a crab or a turtle, and i hafto float off again an keeep searching
go ahread an take this offensively, i DARE YOU to be selfish enough to think this post is about you.
i feel so much better after last night that was lotsa fun, this was just like the conclusion so i could be done for now