i didn't think it was possible but...
i think today was even worse than yesterday. it was just so aggravating. first off, my bus started coming 15 minutes later so it's 8:45 or 8:50 by the time it gets to school. so i go see karen on the first floor for a few minutes, then it's up to the third floor to see billy for a few minutes only to have to immediatly come back down to the first floor to go to class. i know both of you guys read this and i'm telling you now that i do not like having to split up my time with each of you like that. anyway, i fucking hate my english teacher and i really want to hurry up and talk to my counselor to get my schedule changed. lunch seemed even worse today. i can't stand it. i think that that's the thing that's making me so depressed. then upon getting home i had a ton of homework and it's only the second day; i can only imagine what it will be like in a week or two. then my mom was being a bitch and getting all pissy with me for no fucking reason at all. i hadn't done shit to make her mad. then my dad was being a total dick head, but i mean, what else is new. he was all yelling at me for no fucking reason besides the fact that he was already drunk at six fucking thirty in the evening. then i just kind of had a mini-meltdown. i went into my room and just kinda lost it for awhile. i've had a major, won't go away headache since. i just really want it to be the weekend. fuck, it's only the second day of school and i'm already falling apart. i don't know how the hell i'm gonna be able to handle the whole rest of the year. i mean, i'm sure things will get better and i won't be so upset about things later, it just doesn't seem that way now.