with what little sleep I get, I hate that it's all wasted on you.

I'm tired of this life, can I return it?

if you understood the fear in the night.

so I don't know. I don't know anything. I kind of realized the other day that I'm pretty unhappy. I don't want to be unhappy. I try to mask it but in reality it only makes it so much worse. and I don't know what to do. I miss my friends. I'm starting to freak from being cooped up in the house. I don't want to around my friends because I'm afraid. I ( Read more... )

It's hard to be floundering in such a way. It's hard to be a teen. Finding out your personality. Trying out different things. I just never seem to be the same. I don't want to be somebody else, but it hard not to be. It's hard to see people you wish you were. And the same to not become someone you hate. Today I thought about like why do I try to be ( Read more... )

I'm sorry, I've been really lazy lately and really haven't had any good updates. haha.
That's really all I have to say.

Wow I haven't posted in a long time or long for me. My dad's going to buy me chanel nail polish if I can grow my nails out long enough. Like long enough for it to look good or normal. I don't know how to explain. Like I bit my nails and so as an incentive I get good nail polish to stop. I really want to stop. Oh and this is the color I'm going to ( Read more... )

I need a life.

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Oh god. I got an 83% on my bio final. Which raised my grade to a 59%. I was about to cry. I really didn't want to take the class again. So after school I asked my teacher what I could do to raise it. Which freaked me out. I'm a shy person and having to talk to teachers always freaks me out. But anyways she said I could do these vocab things and it ( Read more... )

I need a hair cut. Not like a new style just a trim. It's finals week. I soooooooooooooo need to drop French 2. Je ne pas parle french. Yeah thats not proper french. well adios

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