clean

[_sick_girl]

Where has the time gone? Seriously!!! Nothing like the mundane of everyday life getting in one's way, successfully obscuring what is actually going on right in front of them, never mind all around them, that's for bloody sure. Combine this with "if it ain't broke..." it is fairly easy to see how we are able to become pretty complacent, soldiering

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tapering

[ext_263000]

Congrats on your tapering success thus far! Going slow as you have done is the only way to do it for sure. Now that you are down to 30 mgs you will likely need to proceed at a slower pace--5mg cuts may prove to be too much.

The recommendation is to cut your dose by no more than 10% every 2-4 weeks, and once you drop below 15, you really want to cut no more than 1 mg at a time. If you begin to feel bad, slow down and wait til your body catches up. Do not try to jump off at 5mgs or anything like that--go all the way down to 1mg.

Sounds as though you may be fairly young and that is in your favor. The longer one has used opiates, the more likely they will have permanent changes in the brain's ability to produce natural endorphins, and may need lifelong treatment. However--and I say this not to bring you down but to be realistic--90% of those leaving MMT relapse within the first year, so it's important to realize this and to know that if you begin to feel that you may relapse, you can get back into MMT at any time up to 2 years after leaving WITHOUT having to relapse first. And please don't ever feel ashamed or "less than" if that does happen--it's not a matter of will power or determination, it's simply a matter of brain chemistry.

Best of luck to you and be safe.

Re: tapering

[flyslip]

Welcome to LJ, Kerry. And I realise your congrats were directed at sick_girl, who hasn't exactly made it easy to see her actual "reply to poster" link (which she might have done, if she was going to open the rest of us up to the Facebook world... even if she thinks it's awesome, a number of us on her LJ don't exactly think it's cool.)

So, hello Kerry, and bye sick_girl... we met in anonymity, and even if you won't acknowledge that, I will, as I still think addicts and alcoholics in this day and age deserve anonymity, even if you think that's a fucking fluid concept.

You know where to find me, sick_girl, if you feel the need to slum it with recovering addicts on the other side of the world. But I really did think, despite the fact I recall we agreed on the AA/NA thing, that you had more sense than this.

Yes, I'm pissed. Yes, I'm going to go have another glass of wine. But your doctor/nurse friend who thought it was well cool to hop on here with her Facebook (yeah, honey, maybe when I actually have clean time and a CAREER? Hah. As opposed to a job, which is what I have had to put up with my entire life...)
Sorry, being unwittingly introduced to YOU, Kerry, isn't what I'm really after in a space where I'm trying to be honest about my life. And it's a bit fucking rich to have it shoved down my throat when in this part of the world I'm reduced to taking MYSELF off over-prescribed bupe tabs I got in the United States.

Gosh, folks, sorry if I sound bitter, but I bloody well AM.

Re: tapering

[_sick_girl]

Hey flyslip,

Did I say something to offend? Cause I really didn't think I had. I remember junkylife.com and everything that came out of that experience/experiment only with fondness. I've never presumed to compare my own personal recovery with another's except in the most general of terms - and I do mean vague, vague and some more vague.

This facebook connection I know of not!?! I do not, nor have I at any time nor do I plan on having in the future, an account/user name with them. I've seen this site as both my daughters use it to connect with their friends etc, but that is pretty much the sum total of my facebook knowledge. I am a couple years away from my 50th birthday so I'm pretty confident that I would not be facebook's ideal target group. Could just as easily be wrong on this matter too I guess...Long and short don't really care.

Drat, my daughter just walked in and must deal with her. Sorry if I've leeft anyone reading this kind of hanging. Promise, will be back...

peace, love and happiness..

Re: tapering

[flyslip]

Your nurse or whoever that was signed in via a Facebook account. You're rarely here so I suppose you've missed the fact that not a lot of people are in favour of people crossposting from/to FB, which happens unless you go into settings and tell LJ not to do this... so yeah, pardon me for tripping the fuck out when I saw this.

I keep LJ and FB separate, because frankly I don't want the world and their dog up in my private business. LJ is the face I show to a few, FB is a public face, never the twain shall meet... THAT'S why I got offended - in fact, if you ever bothered to read my journal, you'd be able to figure that out for yourself (I devoted an entire post to how violated I felt when I saw that methadone counsellor's response to me after my reply to this post of yours.)

Re: tapering

[flyslip]

"Peace, love and kiss my arse," is what you mean, then. I gave you a chance to figure out what I was pissed about; you didn't take the five minutes to bother.

No offence, but the fact you see LJ as "just another blog" to brag about your recovery on, makes me want to go publicise it to a bunch of people YOU don't know, on MY Facebook or somewhere, because apparently you are so smug and idiotic you don't get it at all.

Have a nice life (and by that I mean, don't even fucking come near me online ever again, you fucking freak)...