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First I must give you all Proper Warning; I'm morbid, bouncy, and psycotic. Dark, and yet somehow colorfull. A bisexual and proud. My obsessions include but are not limited to Cold Case, The Crow, My Chemical Romance, Bert McCraken & Gerard Way. I'm a writer with the mind of a dreamer. I quote alot of movies, curse in my journal, and ( Read more... )

*Note: This post will be updated to include all of my "is love" color bars as they are created. Each colorbar will link back to this post. If you decide to use one, please comment on this entry.

DO NOT CHANGE THE CODING/CREDIT ON THE COLORBARS

( self inflicted pain is love )

Jesse came over yesterday. i had to re-arrange previous plans, but thats okies. we made love and he asked me to be his girl again. said i have nothing to worry about he means it this time. stop looking at me like im dumb!! i love him and even if he IS using me, atleast i get the days of happiness out of it that i do! but hes not using me... we went ( Read more... )

so at about 11 this morning zully calls jesse 3 way, we talk for a bit, and he denies all last night happened, he asked me if i was on medication, said he remembers none of it and that he was home on his computer eating chili during the time. but even mom saw him, and i wasnt dreaming, so i dont know why hes trying to make me seem crazy to everyone ( Read more... )

Can i possibly be so stupid? was he playing me again? after friday, jesse wouldnt talk to me. he told emmy-jo he saw i was the same and he didnt like being with me... but last night he said he would come over if i wore my cheerleading outfit. well, i would do anything for jesse, so i put it on and met him outside in the pouring rain. i think he ( Read more... )

I was played for a fool! Woot! Go Me!

Broke up with *one* of my guy friends; luckily got him back...

It's hard, but I'll be okies, atleast i got on hella kiss outa the deal! hehe.

I have a pink lj... and YOU DONT! SO HA! (not realy)

And did you know that...
stacys mom has got it going on!

I dont know whats going on, i dont know if things are getting better or worse. i dont know if this is what ive been praying for the day before valentines day or if its what ive dreaded the most. is he going to hurt me again?! is this real ( Read more... )

If you're reading this right now, there is a good chance you a either A) on my friends list or B) in the adammylove community, in wich case you should click below if you have any interest at all in getting a valentines day card like they used to hand out in kindergarten :P
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Valentines Day. I didn't think it would get to me. but it has. I did'nt want to admit it, for fear 'he' reads this, and will only laughing thinking 'ha, she still cares', but i miss him. i want to disapear before valentines day... i want to end it all now... i cost my parents 4000$ in an ER trip, and I dont want to do that again, but I do want to ( Read more... )

This was expiramental, and to be honest, I don't like how it turned out. It's kind of a journal entry for Grace Polk...

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